21 April 2026

I keep thinking

I should delete my social media, disappear a little,
stop wasting time, become someone who actually does things instead of just thinking about them.

I should be braver.
I should stop getting in my own way.

I should be more mature,
have better self-esteem,
learn to accept that I will never, ever be enough for everyone.

Maybe I should cry more.
Or less.

I should be healthier.
Drink more water.
Take care of myself like I actually matter.

I should say less,
especially to my mom.
Be less honest.
Care less.

I should go to the doctor more often,
see my friends more often,
regret things less.

I should stop planning everything
and just do something for once.

I should probably go to therapy.

I should stop comparing myself.
Stop caring so much.
Or maybe not enough.

I should buy more clothes.
Wear my glasses.
Read more.
Be softer with myself.

I should try harder to be pretty,
to be better,
to be someone worth liking.

I should be happier.
I think.

I should be more grateful.
Maybe.

I should-
Stop.