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Re / Membering: What Haunts & What Heals

Speculative fiction/literary horror & essays on trauma, faith, & grief. Stitching ourselves back together with what once scared us. Always narrated.

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The Inheritance | Rereleased

Now with video read-aloud included! A surreal horror short story about family, faith, and a house that remembers everything. A gothic tale steeped in religious trauma and domestic decay.

The Inside Girl

When I was fourteen, I tried to smoke grass—literal grass—and accidentally set a field on fire. A true story about shame, the dangers of religious sheltering, and the impossible longing to be “in.”

How to Feel Like a Failure in 50,000 Unwritten Words or Less // Part 4

Buttering Your Squid Slide and Dipping a Baby Toe into the Sea of Medication — as always, fully narrated

How to Feel Like a Failure in 50,000 Unwritten Words or Less // Part 3

Eight Pages of Proof, A Brick Wall of Graham Crackers, and the Arrival of Wild Woman--Oh, and an ADHD Diagnosis - as always, fully narrated

How to Feel Like a Failure in 50,000 Unwritten Words or Less // Part 2

A Spotlight of Focus, Creative Constipation, and a One-Car Garage Worth of Shame - as always, fully narrated

How to Feel Like a Failure in 50,000 Unwritten Words or Less // Part 1

An overachieving gal's descent into 17 years of good intentions, shutdowns, and undiagnosed ADHD — as always, fully narrated!

The Inheritance: A Gothic Tale of Faith, Family, and Rot

"Seek and ye shall find." A surreal horror short story about a house that remembers everything—steeped in religious trauma and domestic decay.

The Audacity of Wanting

A personal essay on the fantasy of being "discovered"—and how I'm making it happen for myself. On purpose. With everything I've got.

Bait & Switch: A Slice of Memoir about Fathers, Fictions, & Feeder Fish

Yo-Howdy, Dear Reader! I've narrated this one for you too!

Not My Cross: What the Church Burned into Me

A narrated true story about childhood trauma in a Christian school, where obedience was demanded, harm overlooked, & the body remembered what the church ignored.

How the Light Looked

I don't remember your face or your name. But I do remember which way is north and how the light danced across your shoulder. A lyrical piece on light, memory, and the way we come to understand others by how they shape the light around them.

Who Is Doing All of This Well?: What Our Bodies Remember

Modern life demands everything--but our bodies weren’t built for this. A personal essay on modern overwhelm, evolutionary mismatch, and saying no to shame. (And if you like, I can read this to you!)

Sleeping My Life Away

or Mario on Autoscroll - I’ve spent a lot of my life in bed. Or wishing I were in bed.

La Vie en Rose Fluo

It was my first day learning how to ski. I had never skied, on land or on water, or engaged with anything that remotely resembled a sport. The body I had successfully walked around in for nearly a decade now felt like a network of cavernous rooms, mysterious and sticky with anxiety sweat.

"Hide It Under a Bushel--NO!"

If people are giving Liz Gilbert 1 star ratings, what I am doing trying to please everyone?

"Oh How Maddening!"

In Defense of Earnestness Dear Reader, A few years ago, I was writing a provider spotlight piece for a medical publication. I met with the doctor via Zoom to ask a series of get-to-know-you questions so I could best prepare myself to write the piece.

Turning Over the Soil of a Decade

On Turning 40: The best thing just happened. A door opened, and I slipped through it. It was so easy it happened in my sleep. (I had very little choice in the matter, but I like to pretend I did and that I would have chosen it anyway.) The only sadness I feel is the nostalgia of leaving behind a decade-long friendship with my 30s. I turned 40, Dear Reader.

The Goal is Delusion

“Please tell me the truth. Don’t bullshit me—I’m as serious as a heart attack: Is my writing any good?” She sat across from me, blinking. She knew I meant business. I knew she would tell the truth, and I waited.

Licking Ourselves Up Off the Floor

On Radical Self-Love

Writing Our Own Rubric: On Resisting and Creating Our Self-Made Structure

Why do I constantly invalidate myself?