
The Strange Season of Not-Here, Not-There
I thought a year of travel would make me appreciate home more. Instead, I came back to the same house, the same city, the same life—and realized I wasn’t quite the same person living in it.
For people who suspect there's more life available than modern adulthood makes easy to reach. Weekly essays from the road... about slow travel, belonging, and participating more fully in the life you're already living.
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I thought a year of travel would make me appreciate home more. Instead, I came back to the same house, the same city, the same life—and realized I wasn’t quite the same person living in it.

I thought every destination deserved the same version of me. Planning South America made me realize I was asking the wrong question.

Somewhere in the south of France, my reserved English husband became "Henri"—a louder, bolder, more confident version of himself. At first it made me laugh. Then it made me rethink authenticity, language, and the places that bring different parts of us to life.

Not everything new is worth carrying forward

We thought we were planning an early retirement. Looking back, we were doing something much bigger. This is the story of how Nigel and I learned to redesign a life instead of simply inheriting one.

I thought there was one right way to be polished. Travel quietly proved there wasn’t.

I thought the smartest people were the ones who already knew. It took retirement to realize curiosity had been waiting underneath certainty all along.

I wasn't pretending to be okay. I was pretending not to need anything.

Why some periods of life feel emotionally vivid — and others slowly flatten

We thought it was a spreadsheet. It turned out to be a record of what we valued, what we feared, and who we were slowly becoming.