A Psychological Account of Seeing Hot Girls in Turin.

hello. I was on vacation to Turin. Which is the best city in Europe I have ever vacationed in. The ice cream is great, the people look great (beautiful, sexy, well-dressed etc.). One thing I noticed is that people are less on their phones there, especially the youth. This was clear in contrast with arriving back in the Netherlands where literally everybody under the age of 18 is on their phone. Part of the reason why kids in Turin are less on their phone is that they have a sexy culture. There are clubs where there are so many young girls that look extremely good. (I’m writing this in the Netherlands — don’t freak out if you are in the U.S.) Girls under 16 have a place to go to look good and then to have sex! The boys are more scummy in my opinion, but that’s because I like girls, okay. If the girls like these Moroccan-fied tracksuit guys, who am I to complain? The girls dress well.

WHAT I mean is that there is actually something happening there. These teens are really anxious and excited. All the energy in socializing is happening there, in the club! Right outside the club! - Did you hear that Giorgio and Paulo got into a fight over Sofia? - Yes I saw it. Paulo spit in his face but he was dragged away by the police. - I heard Giorgio then went to his home and gang raped his entire family. etc.

If there is stuff going on in your city you talk about it. All your desires and social status cues are measured and acquired in that space, be it symbolically or literally. I might be very out of touch, but I can think of nothing in the Netherlands that has that same vibe. And I’m talking for kids like me! I certainly didn’t have that when I was young. I’m still compensating for it. Im addicted to finding the perfect party night. A friend recently told me I was never going to find it, I almost cried! So now I project all my feelings of yearning for a real ecstatic night with a real ecstatic scene on these Turin kids. If only I grew up in Turin, I would be fucking relaxed right now. I would not have this burning dissatisfaction always eating away my heart.

P.S.

ChatGPT refuses to help me fix my spelling mistakes, that I make because I wasn’t paying attention in class because I wanted to go play outside. And later because I was numbing my desire for the perfect party by smoking weed. They later called it dislexia (?) which I don’t have because I read very quickly. For music you don’t have a dislexia, altough that certainly exists. A lot of people have music dislexia. Or maybe there just not so good at making music, or they where taught poorly. OR maybe they actually had every opportunity to learn and they just weren’t interested! makes you think... I got 2 hours extra for every exam which was nice because I could make them while high (which makes me read very slowly).

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