I took care of a lot of things today
A LOT
Some of which are too private to write about here but I finally had a little bit of money I could afford to allocate towards some basic needs like my first pedicure in five months
The sores on my one ankle screamed at me as she expertly scrubbed hard with that thing that makes the soles of your feet less hard
I joined the gym at the end of my block and inadvertedly got one of my friend’s a free month simply because he recommended it to me
Today I bought a juice at a raw juice place on Magazine Street
The cashier jokingly called it ‘spicy orange juice’
I’ll take it
It’s lasted me all day just taking big nourishing sips
I love the way that ginger burns my throat
Now I can go to the gym anytime I don’t know what to do with my free time
Which is often now
I whittled down everything I’m doing to the point where
The podcast is good
I make content regularly for my other platforms
I don’t have a million things on my to do list except try all the hotel pools
I invested in $45’s worth of new Korean Skincare products
Instead of doing more, I’m thinking about this Fall as
Doing things deeper
Speaking to fewer people
Staying focused on one thing for longer
Planning more elaborate dates for my partner and I
And now
Helping this family buy a new building
Yes
Wellness
The better I feel
The more capacity I have to see new possibilities for myself
I’m not just burned out all the time
I ran out of money before I could buy more groceries but I’m not fully out yet so it’s fine
I can just go to the gym and get a muffin or something
And pay for it when I pay my gym dues on September 1st
At the gym, I will let my ADHD whims explore
And I’ll continue to challenge my word of 2026
‘Presence’
In another way
I need more
Energy that’s organic and not caffeine
I don’t know how many more lemonades or
Iced Matchas with Oat I can drink
I eat healthy
I now know how to drink two glasses of wine without getting really fucked up
That’s a pretty New Orleans wellness milestone
I feel often like
I am staring my own messiness in the face most days
I have achieved some sort of Millennial badge for ‘feeling the most observed’ and not running away from it
I know what changes about any room I enter, and it’s not always for the better
But I feel some sort of wanderlust in me quieting
The need to hop on a plane like I used to when I was a college Professor has gone dormant
Why would people go on vacation when I work vacation?
I work for the people’s vacation every day
Folks are always flying to New Orleans or driving
It’s a Tropical paradise but I can’t live like I’m constantly on vacation
Some definitely do
Absolutely
That’s what’s kind of scary and dangerous about it
You can’t just go with the crowd here
Anywhere
You have to have your own choices, or you’ll get lost and not the good kind
The steady hum of depression kind
The drinking kind
You melt into the walls and become the French Quarter scenery if you are not careful
Or awake to your own choices at all times
I took care of a lot of things today, and my body parts that were pampered feel so much better for it
I put Neosporin and Bandaids over my wounds
I took a quarter of a gummy, and I’m resting
I thought about shooting Content, and I thought
Not right now
I’ll write something though
I can still taste the Cayenne Pepper and The Ginger AND the Orange on my tongue
I’ve still got a little more to go before it’s gone
I made some missteps this afternoon
I tried out a hotel pool that was way too small and FILLED with people which is the worst when you want to just be hot and bathe
But also I liked the whole everybody watching me thing
I wore my epic Krewe SUNGLASSES and a leopard leotard over my Skimm’s Black Bikini
A woman eating outside of Juan’s Flying Burrito was like Girl You ATE
And when people approached me, I kindly gave them permission to fuck off
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I missed my opportunity to go to the grocery store
But that’s okay
More money will come
Somehow
Someway
I’m just gonna concentrate on wellness
My style
Being good to my body
My skin
My mind
My time
Next on my list is to buy some Amazon Basic Socks without holes in them
In the meantime, I’m not really worried about anything at all
And that is one fucking real victory
My anxiety
Is like a thin membrane that’s now just a memory of all the moments this summer that did not require my heart racing even though it was at the time
I overreacted more than once
Now that I realize that behavior isn’t justified
It’s time to just
Pour in to my own cup
Breathe and kick back to some more Fran Lebowitz which I’m sure this rant has a twinge of
Only I’m a neurotic New Orleanian who’s now in recovery
There is something about that New Yorkness that is comforting though
They also put up with a lot of obstacles and have no idea how they can afford to live there
Wellness is not just one thing
A nice glass of dry sparkling wine on a burning day with a mini happy hour cheese plate is sometimes all I need
It’s even better with a book or good company
Did you know that there is even a BAR inside of the French Quarter GYM?
I got a free drink coupon with my membership even
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