Friendship

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We really should be close friends with only a few people

At least I

I should

We should use the word friend more sparingly

It’s something that’s earned

Not just given freely

Or at least I

Need to give less early on

And then give more when it is matched

I gave much more than I had to give

People love you when you are of some use to them but also

There’s something about

Love

Love just truly being that you enjoy each other’s company

I’m starting to think

The transactional ones are the business ones

And that kind of effortless in person joy that comes from sharing space with the very very best

Most intimate of friends

Is for maybe .05% of everyone you meet

I meet

It’s a good metric

I feel

Do I want to speak endlessly to you and with you?

Then those are my friends

And my boyfriend

If it’s just like a mutual shared interest we have

Supporting each other’s businesses

That’s not necessarily the credentials of

Olivia friend material

Sure I have that in common with some but

Somehow without that thing

I still want to be around them

Text them

Call them

Any chance I can get

Then that’s the homies

Yeah

No fair weather intimate acquaintances in my inner circle

I’m sure I’ll still get my heart broken at times but maybe because I’ve become so

Discreet

Those little deaths will have much more wisdom for me

In there somewhere

Recently I’ve realized

That I’ve been attracting people like me

Lately

Reflecting things I do like about myself that were subtle before and now

With y’all’s influence

More pronounced than before

Friendship

Is a special thing

Like a Holy Revelation from God on a Mountain

Thus saith these two should cross paths

And teach and strengthen each other

What else could this all be about?