Openess and Upheaval

What I have noticed lately is a return to steadiness. Back to the middle of the messy middle. There is calm there, even if not tidy.

The calm after the storm.

A storm may be welcomed or anticipated and still lead to disruption. It can unsettle the ground, though it was chosen. What I am noticing is how slowly it has shifted — from disequilibrium to something steadier. A steady state that is understood now, and even welcomed.

It feels different than other times.

I have lived through a time when life truly turned upside down.

That was not unease or anxiousness in the body. It was disbelief. Unbelief. Pain. Deep, deep sadness. Overwhelm. A completely different territory.

What I am experiencing now is not that.

For today, I am steady. And even progressing.

There is an openness again, a turning toward possibilities.

Settling into a rhythm, a non-predictable rhythm, but one that is starting to be comfortable.