Estrangement……..from hurt to bliss….

Estrangement…..and the hurt….

I’m at a point now when I no longer carry the hurt that others have done to me, and it’s blissland you know?

It’s truer to say that I no longer carry the hurt that I felt as a result of others treatments of me

And I say it this way as I know that sometimes others peoples treatment of me has rolled off me, at times.

I’ve just not been at the effect of it…at times

I don’t replay the hurtful events in my thoughts any more

I’ve stopped doing that to myseif

It’s taken time …..because there was a time when it felt right to still be upset in how I’d been treated and hurt

I got rid of a lot of anger and pain by doing this …..but …..there comes a point, which is not always easy to see, where the retelling of the story, in that way that made them wrong, seems only dig it into, embed it deeper, into my way of being …..forever hurting about what was done to me

So I stopped blaming and making wrong ….and stopped hurting myseif in this way ….

I let go of hurting myself all over again by retelling my story in that way that I was done wrong to.

I know from my own experience that if I do harm to others, I’m harming me too at the same time

I feel bad inside …..most of us do

So it helps me to let go of any unkind things that others have done, or do to me, by remembering that they are hurting inside when they’re being unkind, mean or inconsiderate…….hurting themselves by hurting me…l

We have to live with our own transgressions

It’s my job to forgive my unconsidered mistakes and apologise when I’ve created upset

Just as it’s the others who know they’ve created hurt in me to forgive their own mistakes

I never needed to carry the pain in me

For what good did it do me?

Feel it

Rant and rave a little

Get it out of my system ….

Let it go

I see it now

It’s so peaceful not carrying hurt

Grief, yes, for the loss

Hurt feelings….no more…

Peace

Freedom

Bliss

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