Nobody Told Me the Mess Was the Method

Did you know I opened a physical STUDIO NOTO world in PDX about two weeks ago?

“What’s next for you?”
I used to hate that question. It smelled like a networking event. Like someone waiting to categorize you so they could stop paying attention. Like a trap dressed up as small talk. Which if you know me, you know I can’t do.

But something shifted. Because the answer got simple.

Everything. All of it. At the same time. In the same room. Finally.

Let me tell you about the moment I understood what I was actually doing.

I was standing backstage at a show in NYC. Twenty-six years old, holding a mascara wand like it was a weapon, watching the iconic key artist transform from a gender ambiguous model into a statement. I can’t even remember who the designer was. It all happened so fast. The music was something cold and electronic I still can’t identify. The light was wrong in the best way. And I remember thinking: this is it. This is the thing I’m chasing. Not makeup. Not fashion. Not beauty. The feeling of walking into a room and having your nervous system reorganize itself.

I didn’t have words for it then. I just kept chasing the feeling.

Two decades doing makeup, an art magazine, a skincare brand, a Substack, and a store in LA and now Portland later, I finally know what to call it.

A world.

If you read my post about building a brand when you do too many things, and apparently a lot of you did (hi, I see you, I love you, stay), you know I’ve been making peace with my particular brand of creative chaos for most of my adult life.

I’ve never been a one-lane person. I can be grateful for this now, but back then- it was not considered a strong point. I’m a ass whole interstate with construction signs and wildflowers and weeds growing through the cracks and music you can’t place coming from somewhere you can’t see.

What I didn’t write about, what I wasn’t ready to say out loud yet, is what happens after you make peace with the chaos.

What happens when the chaos grows a skeleton.

Studio NOTO was not a plan.
Let me be very clear about this so nobody constructs a narrative about intention I don’t deserve.

It started as frustration of desire to make things unrelated to what I was already making, and then a Substack. A place to think without it needing to perform. I started writing the way you start a voice memo at 2am, just to get the thought out before it eats you. No strategy, no funnel, no content calendar with color-coded tabs. Just: here is what I’m obsessed with, here is what’s keeping me up, here is what I think about beauty and queerness and making things in a world that keeps trying to make you make things faster.

Turns out people wanted to sit with that.

Then Portland happened.

Not in the cinematic way. No montage, no manifesting meditation ( though it sorta does feel like a manifestation), no moment of divine clarity over a green juice. A space showed up quietly, the way the right things tend to arrive when you’ve finally stopped white-knuckling every decision into a shape it doesn’t want to take. I walked in, I felt it in my chest before I felt it anywhere else, and I said yes. Even though my initial thought before seeing it was HELL NO.

Before I understood what I was saying yes to.

Which, if I’m honest, is how every genuinely good decision I’ve ever made has gone. The cautious decisions, the well-researched ones with spreadsheets attached, those are the ones that haunt me at 3am. The gut ones, the scary fast ones, those are the ones I live in. Because they may be fast, but they are more certain than anything else. Just like finding my wife. The moment I met them, that was the moment I knew it was going to be what it was going to be. No questions asked. Calm, peace, and deep certainty.

Walking into the space after i’d built it out (rapidly might I add - maybe 2-3 weeks in total), after I’d built shelving, sourced and hauled fake boulders and hung things and lit it all exactly the way it lived in my head, I had a feeling I can only describe as recognition. Not pride. Deeper. Like bumping into a version of yourself you didn’t know you’d been building toward this whole time.

There are boulders with moss in the center of the room. A dripping candle making its own slow sculpture. Cinder block displays next to a Donald Judd-style desk stacked with my archive of 90s magazines. Corinne Day next to Helmut Lang next to a record I found in a shop in Paris years ago, that I still haven’t listened to yet.

The Cocteau Twins are playing. Or Grouper. Or Italo Disco. Or Moodymann. Depends on the day and what the light is doing.
I looked around and thought: damn. I made this happen.
Not just the room. The whole damn thing.

“The role of the artist is to make the revolution irresistible.” Toni Cade Bambara said that. I’ve had it saved for years. It lands differently every time I read it, which is how you know it’s true.

Studio NOTO in Portland is not a store the way a store is a store. It is not retail with a good playlist and some nice objects. It is an experiment in what happens when you stop apologizing for the full range of what you are and just let all of it be in the same room at the same time.

Scent and writing and objects and clothing and skin and conversation and music and silence and the very specific quality of light at 4pm on a Tuesday when nobody’s there and you’re just standing in something you made.

It’s a creative incubator. Mine first. Collaboratively, yours.

Here’s the thing nobody tells you about making a world instead of a brand.

The world has to be so complete that people feel it before they can describe it.
A brand can be explained. A world has to be felt first.

There’s a difference between walking into a store and walking into a room that knows something about you. Most retail is the first thing. You understand it immediately, you navigate it, you leave. But occasionally you walk into a space and something in your nervous system goes quiet in a specific way and you think: oh. I’ve been waiting for this without knowing I was waiting.

That’s not design. That’s not branding. That’s not a mood board executed correctly. That’s a world that was built by someone who made ten thousand decisions from the gut and trusted every single one of them.

It’s the feeling you get from a Nan Goldin photograph. From a Derek Jarman film. From a bar in a city you’ve never been to where you don’t speak the language and somehow you know every person in the room is your people. You don’t choose that feeling. It chooses you. And the only way to make something that produces it is to stop trying to make something that produces it and just make the truest possible version of what you actually are.

That’s what Studio NOTO is trying to be. Not legible. Not optimized. Not positioned.
True.

I want to tell you about the notebook I kept in my mid-twenties.

I was doing makeup on sets, doing editorial work, slowly formulating what would become NOTO Botanics, and writing constantly in a notebook that I was absolutely certain served no purpose. Observations. Scent memories. Textures of places. The specific quality of light in a hotel room in Menorca at 6am. The way a certain kind of old Italian plaster feels under your hand. The smell of a record shop in London where I found a record that I’d been looking for for three years.

I thought I was just being self-indulgent. The kind of thing you do when you’re young and haven’t figured out how to be useful yet.

What I was actually doing was building an archive.

Everything in that notebook lives in Studio NOTO now. The plaster walls. The scent palette. The quietness. The way the space holds you rather than performs at you. I was taking notes on the world I wanted to make years before I knew that’s what I was doing.

The mess was always the method. I just couldn’t see it yet.

“I want my work to feel like what you feel when you hold a stone that’s been in the sea for a long time.” Louise Bourgeois said that. I think about it every time I make something and wonder if it’s enough.

It’s always enough if it has that quality. That worn, held, known feeling. The feeling of something that has been somewhere and carries it without announcing it.

That’s the brief for everything that comes out of Studio NOTO. Not: is it beautiful. Is it recognized.

So here is what’s coming.

We have a new mark. A hand- the idea of making things with them. Open, present, slightly rough around the edges from the stamp. A hello. It’s going to start going on everything we make. Wax seals, tees, candles, hang tags, lighters. It means Studio NOTO without explaining itself.

Which is, truly, the only kind of mark worth having.

Limited drops were always the ethos of Studio NOTO - never about scale, but about play - and when it’s gone its gone. New fragrance and candle every quarter, tied to a feeling rather than a trend cycle. Tees and totes that match the season and then disappear. And a quarterly message card with no product attached. Just a message.

The first one says:

Studio NOTO recommends 10 minutes of silence. Put this card somewhere you’ll see it.
Edition of 100. When they’re gone they’re gone.

Everything passes.(Tutto Passa - remember the OG name for all of this?) That’s not a warning. That’s the operating system.

We will have dinners. Ten people. In the space. The menu built around whatever we’re currently obsessing over. The menu card is the only thing you leave with.

The evening is the product.

There’s more. I’ll tell you as it arrives. Announcing everything at once is so deeply not how this works.

Here is what I need you to actually understand. The thing underneath the thing.

Studio NOTO is not a pivot. Not a rebrand. Not me trying to be a lifestyle brand or a wellness concept or a creative agency or any of the neat little categories that make investors feel safe and artists feel slowly suffocated.

It’s a world I’ve been building since I was 16, living on my own in Detroit, going to the goth club, broke, thrifting, living a very DIY lifestyle and didn’t have the language yet for what I was collecting.

Since then, making formulas at my kitchen table at midnight. Writing in notebooks nobody was reading. Staying in rooms in southern Italy that smelled like a specific kind of old and quiet that doesn’t translate into English, that you can only understand by being inside it.

I was always making the same thing. In different materials, in different rooms, at different hours of the night. The shape of it just took decades to come clear.

Now I can see it.

And that is the most disorienting, quietly electric, slightly terrifying feeling I’ve had in twenty years of making things. Like finally being able to read a map you’ve been holding upside down your entire career and realizing you were never lost. You were always exactly where you needed to be to understand where you were going.

Scattered and layered are not the same thing.
Scattered is noise with no center. Layered is depth that rewards patience.

The makeup years( still going ) , the skincare years ( very much still going ), the writing years, the LA years, Portland years. The Puglia years that are just beginning, the ones where I learn what it means to make something slowly in a country that has been making things slowly for centuries and doesn’t apologize for the pace.

These were never separate chapters. They were always the same book, written in different rooms, at different temperatures, in languages I was still learning.

Studio NOTO is where the layers finally became something you could hold.

If you’re in your own accumulation phase right now, saying yes to things before you can explain them, making work that doesn’t connect on the surface, keeping notebooks that feel self-indulgent, building rooms in a house whose floor plan you haven’t seen yet:

The throughline is forming. Underneath everything. Whether you can see it or not. Whether it’s making sense to anyone around you or not. Whether it looks like a mess or a disaster or a beautiful catastrophic waste of your most productive years.

You’re not scattered. You’re layered.

Stay in the mess. Don’t clean it up too early. The chaos is data. The strange collisions are your raw material. The thing that doesn’t fit anywhere is probably the most important thing you’re making.

Keep the notebooks. Keep the voice memos. Keep going to the record shop and letting your hand stop where it stops.

Trust the gut. It’s logged everything.

And when someone tells you to pick a lane?

Smile. They can keep their lane.

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XO G

Explore more from my studio:

• The Planner by Studio Noto — A tactile roadmap for the life you’re shaping.

• The Anti-Brain Rot Reset PDF — For the overstimulated who have succumbed to thinking scrolling is a source of rest.

• Things I make to make you feel great — Wearable, burnable pieces of the world I’m building.

• Creative Consulting + Direction — Built my own brand. I can help you shape yours.

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