Six year old me

At the age of 6 my intelligence level was already way ahead of others my age. It was very difficult for anyone to keep track of where I was because when I saw a chance to get away and go play where I wanted to I was out of there.

In this image I lived where the yellow circle is. I played where the orange circle is. About a mile from my house that was down in the river valley. The large wooded park went up the side of the river valley and up on the valley edge. The botanical garden had a huge fountain about 3’/1m deep that we used to play in. There was a creek at the lower side of the park that I also played in and concrete paths and stairways up the side of the valley to the top of the park.

The blue circle was where I went to kindergarten. The red circle was where I learned how to be a good man when I grew up. Averyville Baptist Church.

I never went to the river, I was only 6 years old and there are two high traffic roads that have to be crossed to get there. I didn’t start playing at the river until I was a little more grown up at 8 years of age. Then it was game on.

At 8 was when outsiders started trying to control me. That did not work out for them as they had planned. I was smarter than they were. At age 10 they escalated the fight with juvenile probation for truancy. At age 11 they made me a ward of the state and started passing me around through 3 foster homes, 3 children’s homes, 1 juvenile detention center and a children’s psychiatric hospital at age 14.

At that hospital they tested my intelligence. Even though it was a war between us and I pushed back on everyone and everything they tried, they found that I was just 3 points shy from being in the 98th percentile. That is the top 2% of intelligence on the planet.

Once they figured that out I finally won that war and they gave up on trying to control me. They knew they could never outsmart me. When you teach yourself stealth and sabotage at age 11, no one stands a chance. Once the courts got involved it took me 3 years and 4 months to the day to win and make them leave me alone. They terminated the ward of the state on 9-11-1979. I came out of the closet in 1980 the next year at age 15.

I had been outted by the adults in a children’s home when I was 12 years. That was when every called me Franko faggo, queer, homo and the rest. The adults that were supposed to be protecting me caused that. So when someone calls me a fag it means absolutely nothing. I accepted that I was gay at age 11.

I wasn’t a bad kid. All I wanted was for people to leave me alone. Let me play, let me learn, let me create. I absorbed knowledge like a sponge. I could learn through observation and I could do it extremely fast.

I was always forced to be teachers pet even though everyone hated me for being the poorest, the kid without a Dad and the smartest one in the room. I was forced to help teach the kids that bullied me. Now as a man I go after those bullies that want to bully others for being different than they are. It is why I am so adamant about it. They have earned all the frustration that I am giving to them in exchange for what they are doing.

Despite my childhood being so rough it made me into what I am today. I will fight to protect people and I gladly do it. They don’t get to get away with that the way they did with me as a child. I will stand in their way in as many ways as I can. I want them to hate me. I want my name to be burned into their daily thoughts.

Every time they even see a squirrel in nature they will have to think about me. I’ll make sure of that.

Let them whine and cry about me. I don’t care. Let them threaten me and come after me. I don’t care.

I can have absolutely nothing and I will still fight to protect those that need me because that is my only purpose in life. It is all that it has every been since I grew into a man. Let them call me names. I’ve been called worse so it means nothing to me.

I will always fight against bad people at every chance I get.

Now wait until I tell you the rest of the story. About the immense burden that I’ve carried my entire life. This will shock a lot of people. That I can be the man that I am despite this other part. Coming soon to a theater near you. :)