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The Mirrors We Carry in Gemini

There is a version of ourselves that only appears in relationship with other people. I have been thinking about this deeply lately, especially as Gemini season approaches. Gemini energy is often reduced to communication or duality, but I think one of its deeper lessons is reflection. The realization that we often discover ourselves through interaction. Through conversation, conflict, and…

PLUTO IN AQUARIUS IN GATORADE, OH, MY!

There are moments when something shifts in you before you have language for it, and lately that’s exactly what this has felt like for me. I thought I was just outgrowing people quickly. This past week especially has felt off, but not in a way that was isolated or internal. It showed up in my interactions, in community, in the way I was experiencing other people. Something felt different, and I…

The Body Remembers What the Mind Forgets

At twenty-four, I was not doing well. On the outside, my life looked like it was moving forward. On the inside, I felt disconnected from myself. My friendships were shifting, and I found myself surrounded by voices that told me who I was instead of allowing me the space to discover it on my own. I started to question everything, especially the way my mind worked. That curiosity led me to seek…

What the 1st House Gave Me

What lives in your 1st house = what you cannot hide, even if you try. Some placements in our chart are things we think about, but 1st house placements are things we live through our body, and for me, my truth is not just something I know, it’s something I physically experience in real time. So many things have been happening in this stage of life, and there was a certain feeling in my body that I…

Year of the Fire

January 1st didn’t feel like a new year. Don’t I say this every year, though? It felt like I was still mid-sentence. Over the years of studying esoteric systems, I’ve found myself questioning whether time even exists. If time does not exist to our Egun, then what timeline are we really operating on? And yet, when I look at the stars and the moon, I get pulled into posts online and collective…

Crossing Lines

As a child of Eleguá, every new chapter of my life begins with a crossing. He is the keeper of roads and the guardian of thresholds, the one who opens doors and closes them when their time has passed. Eleguá stands at the beginning and the end, and this chapter is the road he asked me to walk. This move wasn’t random. The astrology was loud. And ya'll already know how much I appreciate the gifts…

Breaking Open: What Uranus Taught Me About Timing, Truth, and Freedom

I’ve always felt astrology in my bones—not just in the aesthetic way, or the horoscope way—but in the lived way. The kind of way where...

Cosmic Therapy: A May Series For Healing

After the success of my Pisces Season series, I’m back with a new series for Mental Health Awareness Month that’s all about healing...

Not Just Blood: What We Inherit, What We Heal

Recently, I watched Ryan Coogler’s film Sinners . The film stirred something deep within me. It reminded me that as Black Americans, we...

The Voice That Broke the Spell

How Lilith Taught Me to Stop Shrinking Myself A journey of unshrinking, self-trust, and spiritual embodiment For a long time, I thought...

Finding Home In Limbo

The Journey to Spiritual Guidance and Self-Love Spiritual growth is a journey of transformation. There are moments when we feel grounded,...

Neptune's Notes : Tarot For Pisces Placements/ WK 4

Card for 03/17/25 : The Fool The Fool represents new beginnings, trust in the unknown, and the freedom of stepping into uncharted...

Stop Reopening Closed Doors: Trust the Path Forward

An elder once said, "Stop reopening closed doors." It’s a sentiment that rings deep within, echoing the need to let go of things that...

Embracing My Hierophant Era

A Journey of Release and Growth As we move through Venus retrograde, I’ve found myself at a crossroads of self-reflection and...

Neptune's Notes : Tarot For Pisces Placements/ WK 3

Card for 03/12/25 : Strength The Strength card represents inner resilience, emotional mastery, and quiet power. For Pisces placements,...

Neptune's Notes : Tarot For Pisces Placements/ WK 2

Card for 03/02/25 : Three of Cups The Three of Cups represents community, celebration, and emotional connection. For Pisces placements,...

Neptune's Notes : Tarot For Pisces Placements/ WK 1

Card for 2/24/25: Tower The Tower represents sudden upheaval, destruction of illusions, and divine intervention—a force that clears away...

I Have Many Dreams, Do You?

NOTE THIS WAS WRITTEN EARLY FEBRUARY AND I THOUGHT I HAD POSTED IT BUT IT'S NEVER TOO LATE AND IT'S STILL RELEVANT Dreams: A Journey...

Saturn’s Square: Your Mid-30s Reality Check

When I was just coming up to my 26th birthday, I befriended someone already deep in their Saturn return. At that time, I wasn’t as...

The Art of Embracing Why

Breaking Free from the Obsession with "How" We live in a world that’s obsessed with the question: How? How will I get from here to...