⋆˖⁺‧₊☽◯☾₊‧⁺˖⋆ “And because this was his life and he had more or less accepted that it was the only one he would ever have, he'd decided to take prid...
I consider myself a fairly unremarkable person. This isn't a self-deprecation thing, I just mean in the wider scale of the internet I'm not very noticable. Things I post online don't tend to get much attention, and I'm fine with that. The one exception to this is tumblr, where my Call of Duty gifsets continue to get growth spurts of notes every so often. My most popular one has around 12k notes at…
So. The UK is going through it's second heatwave of the year. The weather becomes more manageable over the weekend - at least, for me in Ireland it will be - but so far it's been ten days of relentless sunshine with little to no breeze. It sucks. If you look in the comments section on any social media post of someone from the UK talking about the heatwave, there's always a flock of smug Americans…
It's pretty obvious I didn't post anything in June. There's a couple reasons for that. The first is that the first half of June is hard for me. I lost my father very suddenly in 2021, so every year since then I experience a handful of shitty emotions around that time. I won't go too deep here, but anyone who's lost someone knows how grief can be an insidious thing. I generally feel very…
❯❯❯❯ LIFE May has been a relatively quiet month for me, in terms of doing much or going places. The first three weeks were spent exclusively at home resting and recovering from top surgery. I don't like that I still have to sleep on my back, but other than that I'm healing up well! I can move my arms just fine now, and can lift things of a decent weight without distressing my scars. I just need to…
this isn't the first post i wanted to make after taking a break from blogging to get top surgery and spend some time recovering from that, but knowing that five of my trans brothers and sisters have been murdered since may tenth just. feels really fucking bad man. juniper blessing, lucas knapp, eryka caldwell, aleanna royal belcher, and dannielle spillman didn't deserve that. no one does, but…
We’re in Scotland now. The Airbnb is nice, but it feels a little cold and clinical. A shell of a house that’s seen no love. You know, the kind that says a place has been lived in. Not sure if that's by design, or just because I miss my cats. The fridge is full of some basic groceries to keep us going over the weekend, and Ma and I are finally winding down for the day. I’m on one sofa playing…
❯❯❯❯ LIFE I continued to struggle adapting to being nicotine-free over the last few weeks, and the havoc it's wreaking on my unmedicated ADHD continues to ripple into everything I do. I did call my local GP about it and discovered that, apparently, because I refused to go forward with a process that wouldn't even help me during the initial assessment, having ADHD wasn't even written down anywhere…
Currently Listening 🎧 KIOSK - Cyberpunk Ambient Music It’s been three weeks since my last post, which is kind of funny, since I said I’d do my best to just post more often without overthinking it. Although, to be completely fair, I have been preoccupied with a handful of other things during the past couple of weeks. I have a proper update post cooking that I hope to get done before bedtime…
Been really overthinking what I want out of this blog. I'm even overthinking this post as I write it up! I'm trying to figure out what kinds of posts I want to put here. For example, I unpublished my vent posts because I know writing while emotional or angry is a bad habit I already indulge in too often on social media. I also decided not to keep up with weekly round-ups because that idea just…
Being nicotine free is a good thing, obviously. I have to keep telling myself that this is a good thing - that it's necessary for top surgery on the 30th, and for my recovery from that to go smoothly. But god, do I miss nicotine. I can absolutely see myself going back to it eventually. The substance was apparently the load bearing thing keeping the rest of my mental health issues in check, because…