I ruined so many friendships and relationships because I would just speak crazy things and yell at people and accuse them of mistreating me. I almost lost my current boyfriend cuz I'd constantly accuse him and his friends of poisoning me/him. Now I'm on meds and going to therapy and I'm grateful but i feel like I'll never be normal like I wish. I have to be in therapy with a therapist that said…
I have BPD and shizoaffective. Me and my bf have been struggling recently in our relationship due to my BPD. I know I am split, but I can't get out of it. I am destroying the relationship, his words are all lies, nothing is true and I am the reason it is failing. I cry and hurt and there's nothing I can do but watch everything fall apart. I bought him a gift a while ago. A single vampire crab. I…
How can you tell your condition is impacting you enough to apply for disability? I think I might be at that point. I've cycled through a few jobs since developing this illness and I think I'm about to lose my current one because I haven't been scheduled in 2 weeks and was told to expect an email; the only correction I've received is that I need to "be faster" as in I'm too slow. And I struggle to…
Over the years I've always had a slight southern accent (I live in the south with a very southern family) and until recent times, when my symptoms got worse, so did the accent. To add onto this, I have disorganized speech and thoughts, so with the heavier accent, it sounds like I'm just babblin about nutin. I also use replacement words that I got from my mum and gramma like I say "prolly" instead…
I hate having this fucking illness. I think about suicide every day, and lately it has become increasingly difficult to endure. I used to be skinny, had defined abs, and a body that I considered aesthetically attractive—almost like a model's. Now I'm overweight, largely because of antipsychotics and the excessive hunger they've caused. But I don't just miss my old physical appearance. In some…
I am switching clinics. It is overdue. My psychiatrist doesn't listen or get back to me and dismisses my concerns. The new clinic offers genesight testing for psych meds. I have some movement issues tremors and paresthesia that I think could be med related I am 62 and may be becoming more sensitive to the meds. I have been ex since 2003 and gave trialed any meds. I can't get a definitive answer on…
Alright so there's a girl at my school we're gonna call her "superdumbass" for privacy reasons. So, we're in the gym locker room and she mispronounces my friends name, so I call her a name. She starts yapping and I guess my schizophrenia tuned her out because I have a tendency to tune out stuff even when it's my sole focus and it's involuntary. And I said "sorry can't hear you over your pettiness"…
Hello! As the title says. I am not schizophrenic, would just like to hear from the community. I am about to attend school for a career in neuroscience and have a history of schizophrenia in my family (I am diagnosed bipolar with comorbities) so I believe this could be helpful for me both personally and educationally. Thank you in advance. submitted by /u/coldnewhome [link] [comments]