I hit my goal... and feel like shit.

This is a vulnerable share and I’ll probably want to delete it, but I also feel it’s important and am curious about other people’s experiences with it… so here it goes.

I just opened my 7 month Evening Star Venus journey with 35 stunning women inside. A number right in range of my goal.

The pressure of developing and launching can be edgy. Wondering if it will fill, if it will land, if it will matter. But I feel driven in that process when I’m moving towards a goal, in deep communion with the forces of nature, (which I live for). There’s momentum in the birthing process…And dopamine is up.

There’s been a lot of synchronistic, benefic Venus energy around me lately, I’m in California, on my Sun/Venus/Vesta line and I love it!

The opening call of A Higher Love was totally beautiful.

Feedback has been great.

So… objectively, it was a clean, successful launch and a potent journey lies ahead for us all.

But the truth is, right now, I feel kind of… dead inside.

And if I go a layer deeper, I feel really quite sad.