You are not delusional enough

Just over one year ago I received a download that felt urgent and insistent.

“You are meant to buy a home in Mexico.”

Not “You are meant to travel to Mexico within the safe and comfortable confines of a 5-star resort.” but to live there, plant roots there, raise my children there, (and hopefully improve my Spanish there…).

This spontaneous insight became a lightning surge of confidence. An unbridled force that coursed through my veins like a drug firing on all the right synapses at once. An immediate leap into inspired action followed.

I found myself searching for available properties, contacting realtors, and setting up meetings to talk about buying a home in a country that I had never lived in (and could barely speak the language of).

My Abuelita Maria De Los Angeles Lopez-Portillo Stiteler was born in Mexico City to a middle-upper class Mexican family that included a former president, business tycoons and industrialists. A fiercely proud 98-year old Mexican-American woman who speaks boastfully of her culture and the country that raised her to this day.

Her deep connection to the land inspired me, and planted a seed that was watered over the years until I decided one day that I would also call it home.

My Abuelita at her Quinceanera circa. 1943.

Within 2 weeks I had viewed several homes and done countless video tours and made an offer on a property that would eventually become mine.

Some (see: most) might call this impulsive, but in this moment I was connected to a future timeline in which this reality already existed.

Because of this I was devoid of fear. Of doubt. I was unshaken when my entire bank account was drained all at once. I intrinsically knew this was the right step.

You might read this and still brace for impact. Feel fear on my behalf. Side-eye me or assume I acted on blind impulse or even worse blind luck.

But my real superpower was hope. It was aspiration. Real optimism and a willingness to suspend disbelief in this moment of the process.

Now looking back, I don’t think purchasing the home was the courageous part.

The real bravery existed in me allowing myself to believe in a future that hadn’t provided me any concrete evidence yet.

Somewhere along the way, we stop doing that.

We stop seeing through the lens of possibility, and start analyzing from the filter of probability.

We see our current reality as a oppressive ceiling that dictates what our life can become.

Downtown Zihuatanejo, Guerrero, Mexico

This Aquarius Full Moon has me reflecting on the version of myself that never asked. “Will this work out?” and instead already existed in “I wonder where this new path will take me?”

This Wednesday’s Lunar event encourages you to also dream in technicolour. To let your audacity drive you forward. To let your imagination paint a vividly clear picture. To jump out of the plane without fear, focusing more on enjoying the view than how you’ll make your way safely back to land.

This week I would encourage you to ask yourself;

“If I stop ‘fitting’ my dreams into my reality, what do I truly want?”

“Where am I choosing comfort and stability over growth?”

“What does my future self know that I haven’t accepted yet?”

This week is about setting intentions without limitations or guardrails that you have inherited or created over time.

Asking yourself to disrupt, demolish or destroy any system, structure or status that keeps you stuck, stagnant or small.

The evidence of this future timeline exists within you. In the way your heart races when you speak about it. How your mind somehow circles back to it. In the way that you are always drawn to it, researching or ruminating at 3am when you should be getting your beauty sleep.

This thing you just thought of is already yours. It has always been yours. And as long as you lean into faith instead of fear, you will undoubtedly make this dream a very present reality.

Full Moon over the temple at Teotihuacan

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Happy Full Moon,

Mercy