your solution is your problem

We feel alone, so we push for love.

But our cloying pushes others away, deepening our pain.

We numb ourselves, which makes us alone in ourselves.

We fear mistakes because getting it wrong means losing our worth.

We try so hard to get it right that we break the fragile game of living.

Leaving us in our ultimate mistake.

The ways we learn to cope with our pain become our symptoms.

We think we’re adapting, but we’re setting the bone crooked. And when we carry a child, or tend a fire, we shoot with pain.

We must stop navigating the nightmare better and begin waking from the dream.

This is the solution to our solution.

In it is the blessing from a prayer we never made, and the wish we never asked for.

Our life becomes a votive to our love.

Warmly,

Lucas