My album CONFIRMATION! has been announced <3 Here's the scoop.

This week I released the first track off my second album and I am feeling more nervous and excited than ever before. I think for the past 10 or so years of making and releasing music I’ve been somewhat on autopilot? Just going through the motions and letting it all wash over me. Never without gratitude, but with perhaps not enough cognisance. I’ve always felt slightly removed from the music I have created. I wonder if that’s because I collaborate with Tom on all Logic music? If it was all me then I can imagine feeling a deeper and more profound connection to it. However with this upcoming album, something feels different.

The past year or so I have been very present. I have locked into conversations, observed more, listened more and felt more. I finally feel like I am living. This has come with some very profound moments of “aliveness”. I see the world differently. The death and destruction in the world has been felt and seen by me in an overwhelming and earth shuddering way, but so too has all the beauty. Noticing gestures of kindness or a pretty flower growing from a weed on the sidewalk have made my life feel more lived. That’s why I think this album could be one of the greatest things I/we have ever made. I can quietly yet confidently say it is “art” because we created this in a mindset of expression and love.

Mine and Tom’s relationship during this process was undergoing our biggest transformation yet. I had acknowledged my PMDD diagnosis and was seeking to explore all the ways it had affected my life to date. It created a side of me that was difficult and angry and oftentimes I stood in victimhood. This affected my relationships in ways that could have severed some of the strongest relationships. My anger was pointed at my family and expressed toward Tom. I feel shame and guilt about this but the kindness and forgiveness I have forced upon myself has meant I have moved through the feelings of shame and guilt and arrived at the point of clarity.

I am so relieved and grateful that my family and Tom (who is also now family) have had the grace and compassion to try to understand me with their curious and open hearts. My family are a bunch of freaky, wonderful, soft hearted people who have blessed my life. For so many years I had a devotion toward our family bond that I couldn’t imagine breaking in my lifetime. But, as life has it, time goes on and we evolve and I found myself in a place of disdain and contempt. Those years of losing faith in family and holding such an enormity of reckless emotion meant losing part of myself. A certain part of me had died. But now, at age 40, she has resurrected. I am whole and complete at any given moment.

For so many years I was searching for someone to blame for anything that I perceived was lacking. Now I realise that no, nothing is lacking and no one is to blame. Things simply are, and just as they should be. This thought relates to my connection with God and religion. As a young person my whole identity was tied up in family, religion and food. Those three things together formed my culture and personality. I can see now how things were led astray and I was knocked off that path, but I can’t be more grateful to have arrived in this place of connection, of CONFIRMATION! To both my roots and the sum of all parts of my personality and experiences. There is no part of me in hiding anymore, it’s all out and proud to be in the world.

I hope when you hear the first track of the album, you hear and feel the emotional realisations I have had. This song, and the album in its entirety is a projection of my core self. This music is my way of saying, here I am, confirmed, confident. No longer searching for blame, simply happy breathing and existing in every waking moment of this weird and wonderful world. This won’t stop me from “becoming” but I am no longer finding myself stuck in that trap of optimisation. Perfectionism is truly a trap and a greenhouse for blame, because perfection is unattainable and so we find an outlet for the lack we experience.

Perhaps this album will inspire you to look throughout your personal history and find peace in knowing that all those experiences, both good and bad, have surmounted to the complex and wonderful beauty of your personhood. Believe in the goodness of your heart and reach out to others with that childlike energy and innocence we all had, and still have. One question I want to leave you with is:

What would you tell your childhood self? About yourself, about life in general, any wisdom you feel they need to hear.

All my love,

Sam aka Logic1000

PS. I wanted to do something very special for my paid subs. Below is a link to a stream of my