Let the Emotions Diary explain you, to you.
Hey there all,
As I opened Substack to create this week’s T.E.D. I realised that it’s actually a continuation of the last one.
Last Emotions Diary I went down the rabbit hole on a freelance job. This week, I turned work into a vendetta.
But here’s an interesting thing with this practice; what’s often revealed is that it isn’t the thing that’s the problem, but what’s under the thing.
I had told myself I’d been procrastinating on a job and so when I sat down to do it yesterday, I barely left my chair for eight hours. Not because I was in the joyous zone of creation, but rather in catch-up mode for something I’d decided was late. Over to you TED:
I made the making unbearable, so the having would feel earned.
This is an old story coming back in a new form.
Procrastination is self protection. If I feel subconsciously that I have to suffer when I create, delaying it guarantees the suffering.
This is one of my oldest stories, and this is another version I’m chipping away at as I hike my inner wilderness, T.E.D. in hand.
Watch the whole video below for the whole story:
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INSTRUCTIONS FOR USING THE EMOTIONS DIARY
Whatever you can’t figure out in your life, you can figure it out in here. The Emotions Diary is the tool for undividing yourself - understanding why you do, think, and feel the things you do.
You’ll need 4 things:
A notebook
A pen
An open heart
An open mind
And the practice is in 4 steps:
What - Write down what’s going on in your life that you want an answer to; a persistent feeling, a bad habit, not knowing why you did something, general confusion etc.
Ask - Let this formulate into a question. Sometimes the question itself surprises you, as in, oh yeah, that is what I want to ask. Also, you can go straight to the question if you already know what you want to ask.
Wait - Relax. Let the universe do its work. Generally an answer starts coming within seconds for me.
Answer - Write down what it “says.” Don’t overthink, edit it, or interpret it while comes. Receive it like you’re taking dictation. Capture the tone.
And a final note is to dwell with the answer. Feel the layers of it land in you. See what you realize about the knowledge you’ve been given.
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