Time is an extra limited resource these days – I don t know how it keeps slipping away. I meant to launch my project for the year, Draft No. 1, on June 18, but the date came and went – and 10 days later, the rough draft still sits on my mobile phone. Having to juggle Continue reading "Juggle"
I scrunch my eyes, struggling to find the thought that keeps escaping. Occasionally the thought solidifies, then just as I am about to act on it, I am needed. I let myself be pulled away, because I know what my priorities are in this season – this is me, often, now. So the mess keeps Continue reading "Mess"
“Give me a prompt,” I type. A prompt seeking a prompt. Astrael* responds, Write about a time when joy and loss wove together so tightly you could not separate them. How did the passing of days change your relationship with what you were holding onto — and what you were letting go of?” I think Continue reading "Shift"
I ve taken a year off my PhD – with 1.5 years left to go. With the extra hours that I have, I often find myself thinking about picking up a new hobby. Maybe crochet, I think. Or maybe embroidery. And then I look around at my unused watercolour cards and full set of brushes, my Continue reading "Hobby"
The theme I am seeing in your life now is contentment, the tarot reader said. The Sun, The World appeared in more than one of my spreads. There will be new opportunities coming your way, she said, but they will come with challenges – and the reward is unlikely to be worth the risk. It Continue reading "Tarot"
When I reread my first daily blog entry from 2019, I suddenly remembered that my melancholy is nothing new. The pandemic made me forget because it all felt normal – everyone was anxious, everyone was sad, and everyone had to tell themselves every day: “Be strong. Survive.” So in 2022, as I went back out Continue reading "Restart"
I recently read a short story called Object Permanence by James Yu and like most of his writing — I m a fan — this speculative piece makes use of technology to explore themes of identity, society and culture. In this piece, humans who are landmark caretakers also manage Twitter accounts for their respective landmarks and Continue reading "Embodiment"
I started drafting my thesis in bed, on my mobile phone, typing it into my Apple Notes app with two thumbs as if I was sending a long text message or an email to someone. The blank page feels less intimidating on a phone screen. And 36,000 words seems easier to achieve when the first Continue reading "Thesis"
I woke up before six this morning and couldn t seem to go back to sleep. The heart pounding was back and although my eyes had difficulties opening, my brain refused to settle down. I got up to work. Sometimes when I encounter these sorts of mornings, I write. Other times, I pull up my to-do Continue reading "Flow"
I’ve been dreaming more than I usually do. Lately, the dreams have become aggressive and physical. Dreams of trying to catch items before they fall into a deep water-filled hole, having eggs suddenly thrown at me, being threatened by someone much larger and stronger than me. In my dreams I soothe arguments between other people Continue reading "Unconscious"