Science, whether we want to be able to recognize it or not. Requires love and patience to do correctly. If we don't have that, then we suffer and struggle to make the right connections. I believe this to be the sole deciding factor for useful science outside of topics around quality checking the work, verification, and replicating results. I didn't happen by chance into Energy Work. I…
Autism is complex. Well, no, not really. Not to us. It's just different, it's unintuitive, to nuerotypicals. As is, nuerotypical is unintuitive, to us. Yet, we get along great, together. I've been thinking for years about what a form of social justice would look like from within the autistic community. The empowerment of social justice is after all, a cornerstone for ourselves to…
The world runs on forgiveness. We just have trouble framing it that way, because we don't enter the day with the intent to do harm or the intent to feel harm. We enter the day with intent to do good and reach for goodness. We build ourselves up strong to support each other. Even forgiveness, when improperly timed, could be detrimental. We're taught powerful concepts in our schooling, but…
The age all response to disobedience. After all, it's structure protects the known and it's structure errods the unknown. It's obtuse, invasive, comprehensive, and most of all, it needs constant refinement. It is generally accepted within the autistic community that neurotypicals are the primary beneficiaries of an authority. We perceive most of the thought patterns in circulation…
I'm autistic. They tell me my language isn't where it needs to be. I express my opinion. I'm attacked for it. I express my capabilities. I'm attacked for it. I feel devalued. Yet I have to pretend, it doesn't hurt me. And it does hurt me. I'm just a privileged white guy now. I'd rather be an Aspie.
They don't know better. They think they do, they need to think they do, but they don't. Honestly, we wouldn't do much better. Instead, we have to look for ways to help them reach us. Who am I talking about? Family, Friends, Colleagues, Nuerotypicals & Autistic people. At some point we have to know what we're talking about and being accredited is considered the standard for…
I know you're trying to help me. It hurts. I know you don't, know how it hurts me. I know you want me to overcome. It hurts. I'll mask. People don't leave as often now. But it still hurts. I have a friend. I won't do anything to upset him. He did something to upset me. It hurt, I showed it. Why won't he play with me again? I'm a teenager now. I can learn more…
Question everything. Commonly throughout my life, I have come across the numerous facsimiles to a common response with authority. The lack of questioning it. Authority is there to support us and help us feel safe. What happens when that authority begins to fail to keep you, as an individual, safe? Separation from the authority is the most common response, finding a new authority to work with is…
In a jo int effort, it is important to establish guidelines between parties so that mistakes don't reoccur. Ethical boundaries are initially formed based on correlated datasets and empirical evidence available at that time. Those boundaries can lead to a number of unfortunate misunderstandings when not re-assessed. When peer pressure is used to force change in an individual, it erodes their…
Making sense of the world is tedious. I think that is the pursuit we should strive for, to turn over every downed tree or rock and discovering an evergreen or nasty mold can make all the difference in how we decide to proceed. There are numerous factors which go into developing a mindset capable of remaining stiff, yet resilient enough to function in society. Those privileged to grow up in a life…
I always found the science of whales fascinating. The process of humans trying to understand how whales communicate is what I focused in on, when I started to question what it was like to exist as an Autistic Individual. Of course, at the time I didn't know I was autistic, I did however know there was a variance of interpreting me before anyone provided the words, to me. By simply paying…
I've been thinking about the recent video of ICE taking down an autistic hispanic male. As unsettling as it is, the truth is, that is the reality all autistic males have to come to terms with. There will be, at any moment in time, a point where someone will challenge you. The sad truth is, if you're not prepared for it. It could lead to a series of events that further worsen into PTSD.…
Implementing Deserialize<'de> on a struct always makes me take a step back. I start to question the validity of having to write a Visitor<'de> -trait compatible struct. Then I slowly remember that JSON can be a nested tree of pretty much any kind of data-object representation and I remember the brilliance of the with serde 's API approach all over again. It's a good set of…
It's hard to get along with people with my particular version of Autism. Non-verbalism is not easy to move out of. The amount of patience I've had to engage just to endure other people's temperaments is, well. Hard to describe here; not because I can't but because I don't want you to empathize with my negative experiences. Instead I'd like to help you understand the…
There is a symmetry to language. There is a liquidity to feelings. Together and everything in between is the human experience. Autistic & Allistic individuals live co-habitably on this planet and for us to develop our optimal psychology we must love, hate, endeavour, resign, and tolerate each others behavior as the root goal of our species is no longer meant to survive, but to thrive. A terse…
Finding my inner voice and learning to listen to it has given me the insights I've needed to continue functioning. The world once seemed hostile to me . It wasn't until I said enough is enough, did I take the time to learn a number of methods to test and improve my quality of life. Through utilizing of the scientific method , I challenged the voices of my peers The voice of god is…
This is going to be, an emotional article Molding Phases - Reversing the negative effects of ABA Therapy We find our way through school, some of us prosper and some of us struggle. Those who are struggling and are incapable of being reached are often left behind. I am one of those strugglers and the therapy used to get through to me was ABA.. but it was incomplete and I had forgotten about the…
Summarizing the Autistic Experience is futile; and I'm still going to attempt it through understanding my own behavior and the choices I've made to get to this stage in my life. Self awareness is essential to living with the right emotional attachments and removing the wrong emotional attachments. I purposefully minimize the number of choices I make every day in order to keep track of…
Generally, socially acceptable, to let people know the reason as to why I would take time off and cancel meetings while still staying active at work through pushing code. Like many Autistic Individuals, I've been reprimanded for my behavior and word selection. It had taken a mental toll on me over the years until my naturally inquisitive nature took over. Through considering multiple facets…
Its hard to modulate ones emotional state and the pursuit of bringing yourself out of a traumatic experience is a process. Learning how to reduce friction with others can go along way towards correcting the state of affairs in your life and compartmentalizing your emotions is very much a healthy thing to do, because after all, trauma is trauma and the last thing we want to do is rationalize and…
Securing PostgreSQL using mutual authentication over TLS commonly known as mTLS using a Self Signed Certificate Authority with good enough encryption . The importance of implementing encryption for data in transit is a basic requirement for GDPR & HIPAA. Through maintaining good security hygiene even if you're not interested in compliance, you're reducing the chances of data being…
tracing crate provides an API to record log messages. When considering what kind of labels to log with the messages, I recommend you take into consideration the importance of omitting sensitive information from the long term storage. If I was an infiltrator in your network, one of the first prizes I'd look the learn more about your network is DNS. The second most valuable prize on your…
I've been working on hierarchical lists of cryptographic algorithms and technology frameworks in my spare time and have been spending a considerable amount of time on how to present the information. As much as I like tech data, I don't think the information would be digested well enough using just text. A TreeMap seemed appropriate because I'd like to show/indicate the…
Autistic. Rustation. Pythonista. Ecmascribe. MLE. Through my pursuit to understand Machine Learning, I found myself gravitating towards GAIA , TESS , and other datasets collecting astronomical data. The utilization of those datasets remained to far out of reach for me as my immediate goal was to learn how to deploy and operate Machine Learning Pipelines at scale. Therefore I decided to focus on…
Datetime parsing and rendering sometimes require optimization when iterating over a large dataset. Say you have about a couple million rows of timestamps you'd like to parse into a datatype. It could take some time if you use the wrong import or crate . In this article, I'll benchmark what it takes to load a couple million datetime stamps with Python's datetime , Numpy , Chrono ,…
By far, my favorite RDBMS is PostgreSQL. Having worked with MySQL, MSSQL, Cassandra, Redis and more; the versatility of PostgreSQL continues to inspire me to write better and more complex SQL. I have a piece of software that reaches out to various news websites following best practices for crawling. Scraping content using provided by the sitemap.xml and following the rules set forth by the…