But, Are You a Millionaire?

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how willing I am to actually be seen.

Not just show up online… I do that.

But really OWN the things I’ve done without immediately wanting to add a disclaimer or explain why maybe it doesn’t count as much as it sounds like it does.

Recently someone on threads asked me, “But are you a millionaire?” after I was talking about building million-dollar businesses and honestly, it triggered me a little bit.

Because no, I’m not. ((yet))

And for a second I really sat there wondering… does that mean I shouldn’t talk about what I’ve done? Does building millions of dollars for other people somehow count less because I haven’t done it in the exact same way for myself?

And I realized there’s still this little residue of not feeling good enough that I’m working through.

Which is so contradicting because I am incredibly confident. When I work with clients, I am unshakable. I know what I’m doing. I know the value I bring. I own the shit out of my work.

But building something around me has been a completely different beast.

I’ve been able to hide behind brands. Behind projects. Behind other people being the face.

Now I’m having to sit with who I am without all of that.

Who am I without the accolades? Who am I without the million-dollar successes? Who am I when something I post flops or I test something and nobody buys it?

And I think that’s what this season has really been about for me.

Realizing I get to own everything I’ve done.

The person who did those things was me. It was my brain. My strategy. My ability to connect dots. My thoughtfulness. My mistakes. All of it.

Doing something differently now doesn’t undo the last 16 years of what I’ve built.

I can be incredibly confident and still have moments of doubt… Both can exist.

I just don’t have to feed the part of me that whispers “I’m not good enough.”

I can acknowledge it. I can understand where it came from. I can love that version of myself a little harder.

And then I can keep going.

Because f*ck that. I know that I’m great.

And I think this is where I’m catching myself in real time.

My business has generated over a million dollars in its lifetime.

Like… why have I never celebrated that?

Why is my immediate reaction to explain why it doesn’t really count? Why have I never thrown a party? Why haven’t I let myself be proud of that without immediately adding an asterisk?

That’s literally what I’m talking about.

I can be incredibly confident and still have these little pockets where I minimize myself. Where I move the goalpost. Where something I would be screaming from the rooftops for one of my clients somehow isn’t enough when it’s mine.

And I’m done doing that.

I get to own what I’ve built. I get to celebrate it. I get to be really fucking proud of myself AND still want more.

Those things don’t cancel each other out.

So maybe this entire episode was just me realizing I’m overdue for a million-dollar party.

MILLI PARTY coming soon? lol

But actually…

xoxo

Jaz

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