A little life update before the holiday rush

Lately I’ve been taking Saturdays and Sundays to read, relax, and ignore everything I’d normally do during the week because if I don’t give myself a break, I won’t stop.

This small act pushes everything to Monday morning. I wake up ready to start my day and tackle my list… and then it hits me. I immediately remember

why I shouldn’t have put off one simple thing.

The horrifying drilling outside on the building feels like they’re digging into my brain. I can’t think, I become disoriented, and the one thing I was planning on doing is now impossible — record audio.

The building I live in, in gloomy doom New York (the weather is only perfect in the summertime when it’s not trying to fry you alive), decided to fix the roof, a process that should last about six months if the weather decides to be nice. I think they forgot that winter weather doesn’t play nice with anyone, and their timeline includes all of winter.

So, I’m sitting in the furthest, quietest corner I can find in the apartment with earplugs in, writing to you.

There are a few things I could say about this situation, like you can’t control the environment so do what you need to do through the chaos, or don’t put off the easy things until a later date. But what I truly want to say is some days you have to seek out the bright side of everything because the environment can and will make it hard and drag you into the darkness.

Sometimes I think these things happen to force me to look at my present and decide if this is how I want to continue with life. But it’s also motivation in a way because I know that fully living in a place where the sun likes to play hide and seek for most of the year is not ideal.

I constantly dream of sunny days and warm weather, sand between my toes, and salty sea water in my hair. What does a perfect day look like for you? I’d love to hear it — send a message to let me know.

I’m in the process of leaving Substack. It’s the platform that I use to send you these newsletters. I started using Substack about five years ago and thought it was too much to add to my plate until earlier this year when I migrated from my old platform that kept restricting what I used to do with ease. It seemed a lot easier to have everything in one place, and it was for a while.

Even Substack has its limitations, and honestly, I’m not happy that I can’t use your name anymore. Sending newsletters always felt personal to me, and Substack doesn’t preserve that, so I’m currently learning a new platform that provides me with all the bells and whistles I need to make these letters to you feel personal again.

This transition will be slow because I refuse to rush the process, but I’m happy I gave myself the opportunity to explore something new to realize that it’s not for me. So instead of forcing it to work, I’m walking away. Growth!

I have to bring attention to this moment because it shows how far I’ve come mentally. I used to use a sledgehammer to get what I wanted out of things, but I’ve learned that most of the time it’s easier to just walk away. Everything doesn’t have to be a fight to the death for it to be worth it.

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Since we haven’t chatted in a while, I haven’t sent you the new films that have been published, so here they are and a brief summary of what to expect.

Ep 56
If you’ve ever thought that everyone else seems to have life all figured out, think again. In this episode I’ll tell you the truth about proven paths and fixed methods.

Ep 57
As the year winds down, I find myself questioning time, progress, and what it really means to appreciate how far I’ve come. In this episode, I answer a question I wasn’t expecting — one that reshapes how I see the days I have left this year.

Ep 58
The weather is changing really quickly and it brings seasonal depression, energy depletion, and gloomy doom days that force me to find myself all over again in all this change. If you’ve been feeling drained, unfocused, or unlike yourself… this one’s just for you.

Since you probably won’t be hearing from me again before the holiday (Thanksgiving is Thursday if you needed a reminder or if you’re not in the US), and I’m not selling anything for Black Friday or Cyber Monday, I want you to have the best week ever!

Don’t ignore your boundaries because some of your family members don’t respect them. Let them think you’re weird — it’s better to feel good within yourself than to feel like you’ve betrayed yourself.

I’m rooting for you always!

Pro tip: If you are indeed visiting family for the holidays, bring your joy with you. That could be anything from your running shoes, your journal, or a book. If it relaxes you, don’t forget to pack it.

Happy holidays and thank you for being here on my journey. I truly appreciate you.

Now go enjoy my creations. :)