-34 Welcome to my blog! I hope you're doing great as you read this. My name is Change and this blog is a place where I collect thoughts, observatio...
I’m probably a better friend to others than they are to me. I don’t think I mind it, but it does come up in my mind. I tend to remember most things and details I’ve been told, I compliment at any chance I get, I do as much for them as I can. The only reason I realized it, is because I’ve been told by so many that I always go above and beyond. I love my friends and I’d do anything for them, but it…
I’ve been going through a lot of confusion about my beliefs lately. I was born Muslim and I’ve always known things about Islam, I even memorise parts of the Quran, but recently I don’t feel the same certainty anymore. I feel split between believing in God and not being sure He exists at all. I keep going back and forth in my mind and I don’t know what I actually believe anymore. It’s like I can’t…
I feel like I’m loosing touch with my religion. I’m starting to question everything. I’m stuck between I know this is the correct religion and what the fuck am I doing? I feel like I’m either a very good Muslim or I’m just someone who larps being Muslim. Like genuinely idk what to do or think. I don’t even know how to put my thoughts on paper. I can’t seem to grasp what is happening. I wanna try…
I hate changing who I am, what I wanna do, how I wanna be. All for what people think of me. Do I let other people’s opinions affect me? Of course I do. But gosh, not to this extent. I can’t do what I want because of what other people may think. And it’s not because of me. It’s because of them. My parents, my family. Fucking people I don’t even know. “Why would you ever buy a guitar knowing what…
I just tend to forget I’m at the place I wished to be at years ago. For years I’ve been hoping and praying to get where I am at the moment. Yet it doesn’t feel like I thought it would. None of the ideas and dreams I had that would happen while being here have happened. I am happy that I’m here but it’s not the happiness I thought I’d feel. All my life I’ve had hopes and dreams. But this was by far…
Why does she hate whatever I do so much. It’s my life yet she still holds onto it as if it’s hers. I wanna try something new and see if I like it. It’s my life. It’s my life yet she doesn’t let me do what I want to do. I understand being uncomfortable or not liking the idea. But such a reaction really isn’t needed. I don’t understand why she acts like this. I wanna live my life on my terms. The…
Every transaction, every time I open my checking account, every time I think about getting something. This feeling washes over me telling me not to buy it. And when I do get it im happy yes, but I feel a guilt saying I could have used this money for a better purpose. My whole life I’ve been programmed to think that anything I want for myself is an expense. That whenever I need something and ask…
One of the things that most often keep my mind pondering, is the fact that the universe is continuously expanding. The idea that even with the fastest way to travel, traveling at the speed of light, will take you millions of light years to reach the edge of the universe. That is to say, if you ever reach it, since the universe is expanding at a speed faster than the speed of light. (Which is mind…
What do you yearn for? Over the course of the past few days I have been trying to think more in a writer way. I want to improve my writing but still write about interesting stuff. The question that has been on my mind for while is, what do people yearn for? What do people long for? Is it a community? A lover? Money? Success? As I tried to come up with an answer I came to the realisation. I'm not…
It is Thursday, the 18th of December 2025. I have been thinking about writing my own book. But what would one write about? I wish to write like authors from the 1500s, but that seems a bit far-fetched. They just tend to conceptualize modern, or then modern, issues in such a terrific way. It seems like it’s just a gift or talent, the way they write sentences and create such authentic books. I’m now…