chubs' personal blog connected to their website
Something I wrote on the socials on Substack, but bears weight here: the floor is palestine I know that the system(s) we live in are broken and built on white supremacy. I am fully cognizant of the fact that sometimes the only way to dismantle the system is through using its tools and discovering small ways to get through the day and play around with the loopholes. But I mean it with my full…
blogging seems pointless so i do it so much less now Over the last few years, I've slowly become more averse to posting my thoughts unprompted on the internet, for everyone to see. I don't know why. It's not like people actually sit down and engage with my work (at least not anymore, anyway.) In fact, one of the reasons I stopped my newsletter is because the pressure if performing for others out…
I'm in Guatemala! Right now, I'm sitting in an expansive villa, lavishing in the air-conditioning because this seaside coastal town is so ridiculously HOT that I can't help but want to stay inside. Weirdly, I've been inspired to write more non fiction here in Guate as if my body already knows I'm putting 110% of my efforts into my other genre of choice. I've been in the country for a little over a…
it's been a minute! I know it's been awhile, but I think part of the point of having a blog is for low-pressure sharing of life updates. Much of my life revolves around grad school and trying to not want to die? Perhaps that's a bit too macabre for you all. Right now, I'm in the last weeks of my spring semester of social work school, which was a program I believed I was going to drop out of--until…
why am i doing this to myself So, for those who are unaware: I am currently in grad school part time, and I most likely will be dropping the program if I get into another program that feels more suited to my interests. I really thought I was going to become a clinical therapist who writes on the side to build up legitimacy for my one true love ( writing .) And then the universe kicked me in the…
I admit: I've spent the last week and a half crashing out over the state of the world and my career. While the two aren't exactly intertwined, I think living as a disabled creative in the US isn't ideal (at this current moment in time.) My spouse, an immigrant with an employer sponsored green card, wonders out loud, if he should start the process of naturalizing himself, and the only thing I can…
One of the weirdest things I've encountered on my journey back to the indie web and web design is realizing that the field has surpassed your base knowledge , as I've contended with balancing and learning. NOTE: This is a more technical post, but it is meant to document my process for novices, or those starting out with Static Site Generators (SSGs.) I hope my post elucidates and dispels certain…
The last Monday of 2025, I asked my therapist why I was doomed to perpetuate these damaging cycles of relating. For some reason, I needed to wonder why I kept feeling guilty for asking for things I need to be in relation to others. It's something that I am unpacking after a few years of tenuous friendships and rebuilding my life and career from scratch. I was facetious about some of my desires,…
an end of the year recap relating to the year of the snake
Sometimes, when I'm bored and unhinged on the internet (this is what happens when I decide to take the entire month off under the guise of " healing from my hysterectomy ") I will shitpost on Instagram (one of the only properties of Meta that I will occasionally use, only for the Stories feature because fuck giving them my DATA!!!!) I wrote a short list on my stories, but I wanted to elaborate the…