As the year comes to an end, the reflections start.

Maybe it’s the season change, that delicate dance between fall and winter, the end of the year and the start of a new one.

The holiday season peeking in.

The lights, the music, the commercials, the travel, the days off.

It feels slow and fast at the same time.

It’s my least favorite time of year, to be honest.

But this year feels different.

More significant.

I’m sitting on the beach in what is supposed to be winter.

The waves are rolling in. Birds are chirping. The sun is trying to shine through the clouds.

And for the first time during the holidays, I feel present.

Present in my body.

Present in my mind.

Just present.

I changed locations temporarily, and in this moment I realize I have gained autonomy.

Autonomy over my life.

Autonomy over my body.

Autonomy over my mind.

This is what free will looks and feels like.

Sending love and good energy to anyone moving through the holidays with a heavy heart.

Whether you are grieving someone here or someone who has passed, rebuilding family dynamics, or building a chosen family from scratch, you are seen in this season.

I’ve always felt the holiday narrative of “togetherness” can be painful when your reality looks different.

Maybe you don’t feel like you belong. Maybe you are alone for peace. Maybe you are miles away from home, don’t celebrate, or you are in a transition period.

None of it is wrong.

This is real life.

Embrace your season. It gets better.

Boundaries, Projection, and Navigating People During the Holidays

I am unsure of what the future holds.

And I would be lying if I said I wasn’t afraid.

But I just realized that today, this moment right now, I will never be able to relive this.

We will never get this time back.

So, as uncomfortable as boundaries can be:

Say no.

Turn down invites.

Stop giving people access to your energy.

Many of us were raised in cultures where obligation was mistaken for love, and silence was mistaken for respect. It’s no wonder the holidays feel heavy.

During this time of year, projections are at an all-time high.

Just like we are reflecting on our year, other people are too.

And some people do not like what they see.

In my experience, projection shows up at family functions, holiday parties, and gatherings with people who normally do not have access to you. People who are bored, curious, or looking for entertainment.

Do not give in.

If you are faced with this, elevator pitch your answers.

A two to five-minute summary.

“Thank you for your feedback.”

“I will take that into consideration.”

Or, if possible, avoid environments that do not feed you.

What matters most is how you feel.

Boundaries are uncomfortable because many of us were conditioned to keep others comfortable. You were labeled “rude” if you did anything outside the norm.

But some of us now see through that.

This holiday season might be your test.

You have healed enough.

Sometimes you have to test the field.

Sometimes you are faced with scenarios to either respond differently or remove yourself completely.

Being alone does not mean you are lonely. It means you know what you deserve.

Choose the people who choose you.

Sometimes that means starting your own traditions or being selectively unavailable.

Cook your favorite meal.

Watch your favorite shows.

Block out social media the day before, the day of, and one to two days after.

Find your healthy and safe comforts during this time.

Only you know your triggers.

Only you know where you stand.

Chosen Family, Rewiring, and Letting the Holidays Be Yours

Over the years, as I built my chosen family and said yes to invites from friends, coworkers, and even classmates, I always ended up having a good time.

I learned something new.

I felt belonging.

I felt community because I allowed myself to.

It is interesting how our nervous system can be conditioned to react not just to bad scenarios but also to good ones.

Sometimes it reacts by making us isolate or feel a false sense of unfulfillment.

And it is tricky, because the media is flooded with curated images of what family, gatherings, and holidays “should” look like.

What it never shows is:

The rebuilding.

The desire for peace.

The self-respect.

The longing for rest.

How your life can look completely different depending on the season you’re in.

Change will always be uncomfortable.

Trying something new will also be uncomfortable.

But it truly gets better with time.

It gets better as it becomes your new norm.

So if this season feels heavy, unfamiliar, or different, give yourself grace.

You are not behind.

You are not alone.

You are not broken.

You are simply becoming.

And becoming requires separation, boundaries, quiet seasons, and bravery that no one applauds you for.

Your future self is already thanking you for choosing peace over performance.

One day, this version of you will look back and realize:

You did not just survive the holidays.

You rebuilt the meaning of them.

You learned to honor yourself in a season that once hurt you.

And that is something to be proud of.

How are the holidays feeling for you this year?

If you feel called to, leave a comment for the next woman who finds this.

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