So…
Yeah… barely anything.
I’ll be brutally honest, i wasn’t able to push myself to do anything productive with my life this year. The reason? Mental health!!! Hooray!!!!!
After my break from Discord, i actually thought i was going to start taking life seriously. I was genuinely happy with myself and proud that i was able to go without checking on Discord every few minutes. And even now i don’t check on it that often. I am still online, but i don’t really seek out attention that much as i used to. If someone messages me, i message back. If i message someone and they take a bit to respond, then i’ll wait for the notification. That was one of the things that i had a problem with and i’m glad that i don’t seek much attention. i do maybe send a lot of memes and art to friends but that doesn’t really count :3
Anyways, what really got me was in the middle of summer roughly, when i got a really discomforting message from my ex that i didn’t take well at all, especially because i was chilling out with people and having a great time. I don’t wanna go into detail about my relationship with them (not everything needs to be known publically!!!) but long story short, i ended up cutting ties with them and in the process, left communities that they were in just so i could avoid them at all cost.
And… yeah.
After that, i wasn’t feeling well whatsoever. Even after half a year i’m still not feeling well actually! However, i’m not going to take another break from Discord just because of that incident, especially because my friends who i knew for a good amount of time missed me a lot, and honestly i don’t see the reason why i would take a break. Instead, i’m going to do something that i know helps me with keeping my mind in control. Web development!!
I’m slowly getting back on the grind that i was on at the start of last year, because making and maintaining a website is pretty freaking COOL!!!
Coming back to it felt refreshing. Back in my comfy space :3 Which speaking of, it’s going to be the 1 year anniversary of this freaking thing!!! And btw, i’m not planning to take it down anytime soon! Not in a million years! I do plan on redoing internal stuff, like switching distros and using a different mail server solution. When will i do that? ion know :3c
Now, about something else
The internet has become a deeply rotted place. I’ve been watching how basically the entire internet is becoming a cesspool of not just AI generated dogshit, but also saw websites actually implementing AI everywhere they could.
YouTube is the worst one. I’ve seen recently how many many many many many MANY creators had their channels wrongfully banned because they literally replaced their entire moderation system with AI. I’ve also seen multiple AI generated thumbnails with literally zero editing done to them, aswell as auto-dubbed videos that i immediately want to avoid. Not because i think auto-dubbing is a bad thing, it’s because THEY DID IT POORLY. I watched a couple auto-dubbed videos to see if the auto-dubbing feature actually makes the video watchable, and it’s really not. The voice sounds very unnatural and unpleasant to listen to. Robotic basically.
And, my god. The amount of times i saw AI generated not just art, but images in general. It just makes me want to gouge out my eyes every time i see that PISS YELLOW TINT in AI pictures. And don’t get me started on AI generated art. I hate having to think twice about whether or not a piece of art that i see, especially if it heavily resembles an anime style, is AI generated.
And now, basically the theft of personal computing thanks to the AI bubble from big tech corpos that want to CONSOOM DA ARTIFECAL INTEL thecomputerinside LIGENCE. Whenever i get a job, i planned on buying myself a Ryzen 9 mini PC that i can connect an eGPU into instead of upgrading my desktop, which is what i’m using, because i don’t like desktops and having to clean them, it’s a chore. But i guess i’m gonna have to wait until the bubble pops, AND IT FUCKING WILL and THEN buy one. I dunno, we’ll see
The point is
What i wanna say is if you’re someone who posts a lot on social media, whether that’d be Twitter, Reddit, Instagram, whatever, leave and try making your own website. Even if you know nothing about making one, do it.
Trust me, hosting your own website is much better than social media because you don’t have to be scared of big tech shoving AI down your throat, or even getting you banned for something that you didn’t do, but only because they didn’t like what you said. Plus, you’re also doing yourself a favor by avoiding the toxic slump that most social media has become nowayads. And hey, you can make it entirely your own!!! Either manually write everything, or use a static site generator like i am!!! Hugo i think is one of the best choices for static websites, and hell, i would go as far as to say to take a minimal Hugo theme, and modify it heavily to suit your style! The world is your oyster!
Plus there definitely is no shortage of helpful information on things like HTML and CSS. W3School is probably the best place for learning how to make a website, and places like NeoCities and NekoWeb are very happy to host the site for you! You can go the extra route and host it all yourself with either a VPS or from your network with a reverse proxy (cloudflare will prolly help you with that).
I’m bad at ending blogs
Anyways, i’m really happy to be back working on my website :>
I have ideas on what to write, and especially something that’ll help people with making Windows usable, so stay tuned for that ;>
As for myself and my messy mental health, hopefully next year i will get the courage to find a job and at least switch off of NVIDIA. They recently published the 590 driver on Linux, which basically marks the end for feature updates for not just the 10 and 9 series GTX cards, but also my 11 year old GTX 750 Ti. o7 to the king of budget. And also, i wanna use Wayland desktops without the plethora of issues that plagues NVIDIA GPUs using the proprietary driver.
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