a funny little maze
theres a second bit of fucntionality here thats important, which is that im also using subfolder collections - so this is a post in dotgay the project (which functions like a little blog) because it's inside that folder along with the index. anyway. this is not the kind of thing i came in here to write about - in fact im editing it after the fact of typing a significantly more philosophical bit, which goes a little something like this:
cause like what even is a 'personal website,' you know ? haha, im joking but like. idunno. theres this blob of 'information about me' floating out there ... what is that ? what can i do with it ? what can it become, over time ... how can i shape it over time ... im building tools to facilitate that shaping, trying to guide and prune and nurture the processes and #meta processes by which thoughts and ideas coalesce into projects, #art works, real world actions and results, like a gardener pruning and nurturing and rotating. (i pause here and add a few links of inspiring personal websites to likelinks.)
for now in the short term, i'm just trying to get it so i don't have to have my neocities anymore ... and so i don't really have to link out anywhere, so all the little song-ettes on my soundcloud are in a bucket here and just, everythings here and i dont have to worry about it. like how every little video is just there on https://billwurtz.com. i got the tarot deck moved over today, even if i'd rather rebuild it better ... ive been telling myself im clearing space to make new art, to end my ongoing songwriting-and-composition hiatus, etc ... and i think thats true. im doing a kind of accounting with which i think many artists will be familiar - and wary of over-indulging in, as i am too for sure. i guess my hope is i can bring a bit of that nurturing energy to new projects ... like, the way this website itself is a personal creative project, that's why it has its own log like this, and it's going really well and i'm having fun with it ... it's encouraging! and its interesting trying to find my voice writing like this, like how much is this a technical log vs an emotional account ... i think a site like this can be surprisingly tender in some ways, if you let it. and i think it could prove to be some part of what im trying to do here.
just a little twisty maze to wander in, and wonder all about the girl who made it ...