I'm fueled by my spite to write this incoherent rambling of a madman.

This is highly related to my previous post, but I can't stop thinking about this so I'll make a new post. My blog anyways.

Over the many past years I have just been rather tired of tech. It overrides our wants and needs to serve the corporate overlords. Sounds like bad cyberpunk writing, but sadly it's true. And it's likely going to get worse.

Unless you just.. Refuse to play. This does not mean "i will sell my computer, buy a farm, realise im now overwhelmed by farm work because I was naive enough to believe the romantification of farms in my head" but it means "Fine. I'll make my own thing or help others to work on better thing."

Obviously there are situations where you can just not do this. But it's about minimizing the bullshit in your life. I even wrote about that here: https://akselmo.dev/posts/minimizing-impact-of-negative-thingsin-my-life/

But as someone who can write computery thing, I will make my damnest sure to write things that serve the user and make things better for people. I know not everyone is this lucky and have to do whatever to get food on the table. But your hobby stuff can be someones day saver.

I refuse to subject myself to anykind of "doomerism." This means the dumb negativity that serves those who have caused it in the first place: "our data gets harvested, our privacy is gone, why do you even bother?"

Because I genuinely want to try to improve things. If that makes me a "naive fool" then so be it: kindly fuck off and leave me to my naivety. Or be a real doomer and make maps for Doom.

I am sick of this "haha u are naive because you think you can make thing better" bullshit. Then what the fuck should I be doing? Whine on internet all day?

It's time to stop feeding that bullshit negativity, but keep the necessary, critical negativity. Stop hating on the helpers, hate on those who caused the situation which is why the help is needed in the first place. Be critical, make sure tech serves the user, not anyone else.

We will all have shit days and these thoughts will feel impossible. But succumbing to the "convenience is king" complancency just allows the ones offering the convenience to take over any agency you have, and surprise, you're fucked.

Help people fix things. Even if you're skeptical if it will help. At least you will learn new lessons for next try.

This post is mostly aimed to myself. I am tired of my doomer mindser and actively trying to fix it. I cannot reject it fully, since that just means bottling up feelings. But what I can do is take those feelings and construct them to something useful.

So I will keep working on stuff that I believe will help improve the world. Either as my job or as volunteer. This is the "magic power" I have so I will keep using it for good.

It's funny how much my stance has changed. I used to be so apathetic, so complacent. But no more. (Within reason, of course. And that reason is different for everyone.)

May you, dear reader, feel better too.