I wish I’d known this sooner.

I wish I’d known earlier that health wasn’t this lame thing boring people did. I wish I’d known earlier that wellness wasn’t beige, soft or performative.

I wish I’d known earlier that health wasn’t about changing or fixing myself. That it wasn't about becoming calmer, quieter or more acceptable. It was largely about accepted who I already was and learned how to be with myself.

Like Many, Love was measured in achievements. Worth was measured in output. And drugs and alcohol made life feel more rock n roll, dangerous and yes, waaaay more fun while quietly numbing and harming the very parts that made me who I am.

I was never taught how to slow down, feel or regulate. I only learned how to push, perform and survive. After years of playing in a number one selling band, touring the world and partying with rockstars, the “god-shaped hole” didn’t shrink. It got bigger.

But, I wasn’t looking for enlightenment. I was looking for relief. Not a philosophy. Not a lifestyle overhaul. Just a way to exist without constantly running from myself. That’s when I realized something no one had ever explained to me: Wellness isn’t becoming calmer, happier or more productive. It’s becoming more honest with yourself. It’s about having that aha moment that YOU DESERVE BETTER. It’s learning how to carry your inner world with steadiness. How to meet your own edges without abandoning yourself. How to stay connected when things get uncomfortable instead of numbing out or blowing up. That what you put into your body is connected to all of these things.

Alternative Options isn’t about becoming someone else. It’s about supporting the person you already are and That’s why we exist.

Not to sell perfection. Not to tell people how they should live. But to build tools, rituals, ideas and a safe place for people who live outside the default.

For people who feel deeply. For people Who live intensely.

I wish I’d known this sooner. So I’m sharing it now.

Wellness - but make it Heavy ⚫

Esjay for Alternative Options™

by KittiePIG, INC