Please Don’t Need Me Today

Ram Dass said,

“If you think you’re somebody doing something, you will burn out.”

Do you ever wake up to a text message,

And it’s someone you love….

And your whole body says no? Not today. Please.

The flash of irritation when the friend starts the same story again.

The secret hope, quickly buried, that someone cancels.

Please don’t need me today.

But then the shame arrives, right behind, doesn’t it?

What kind of person resents the people they love?

You chose this. The calls, the caring, the work. You chose all of it.

And their pain is real.

So you perform.

Kind words, and more and a little more anger inside.

Because beneath the performing is the real fear:

that your love is fickle.

That one day you will reach for the warmth

and nothing will come.

But that irriation is not love failing.

It is your heart.

It is telling you something.

And if you hear it, something changes.

It lets you say yes again, and mean it.

Look at what Ram Dass actually names in that sentence.