i promise i noticed

I promise I noticed…

the way scratches were tattooed on your arms

the way you laughed and smiled when you wanted to cry

the way you joked around just to cover up the deep well of sadness inside of you

the way you were hurting so badly

the way you tried to breathe when you couldn't

the way you covered it up because, you knew i would freak out

the way you hated every second of your life

the way you tried to make others feel better just to ignore what you felt

while i promise i noticed, i think i noticed too late

after you spent countless nights crying, hoping someone would notice

and while i would like to say that i helped you

healed your broken heart, wrapped my arms around you, softening the wounds

it took you to come up to me with your arms lay out in a silent prayer

hoping that i could help, i could only wish that you wouldn’t fall to the ground

but i’d be lying

i let you suffer

i buried my head in the sand and ignored your blantant pleas

i saw you suffering but i just added it to my mental list of observations

what was i to do

except try to mend your broken heart

and build you a ladder

so you could climb out of your pain and suffering

because thats what friends are supposed to do

but i guess im just not a good one

until the next my next wave of motivation

Aaisha

𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼 ⋆.˚ 𓆉 𓆝 𓆡⋆.˚ 𓇼

(don’t judge the cover picture)