My father was an honest gopnik, my mother a gothic misanthrope. I'm the ghost of their son that was left behind. These are my memoirs addressed to them — my ...
Dear mom, I've had you and dad on my mind quite often as of late. I'm still going through hard times and I miss you both. I want to write more letters this upcoming autumn. The subject of mottos came up and I was reminded of yours due to the impact it held. Das Leben ist kurz, das Leben ist schön, und traurig auch gelegentlich. Schlaf ist einfach die Schüchternheit des Todes. Das Leben ist kurz,…
––––– Dad, I'm keeping busy to distract myself from grief. I miss when life felt stable. I miss the simplicity of it all. I miss you and mom both. Why does this heart keep bleeding? I've tried everything to get it back to normal, but nothing has been working. Freezing it makes it go numb, using it makes it gush blood — nothing feels right anymore. I know what I want, but those invisible stairs…
––––– To mom and dad, I haven't written as much as I'd like to, I've been focusing on present day, present time. For as long as I could remember — you both wanted to forget your past at all costs, and look to the future.. I feel I'm the opposite. Day by day, the future looks bleak. Most of what I cherish are considered relics from the past, including most media I care to discover.. This year has…
––––– To whom it may concern, Insomnia has made me realize just how much I've been plagued by death as of late. Over 7 million people have died from Covid-19, and yet the world moved on with barely a moment to grieve, including myself. Last year, I lost her - not to the pandemic, but to something much worse that had no chance of recovery. After that, I nearly lost myself too, and although I've…
––––– Дорогой Зеро и Соло, Thank you for helping me get to this point in life, if it weren't for your respective wisdom and courage - I would've certainly still been trapped in that awful place. This was quite a year for me and I hope next year will be even better. I'll keep working hard to honor you both. With love from Viinyl –––––
––––– Дорогой Зеро и Соло, As of late, I've realized I no longer feel fear intensely. I used get scared while listening to horror stories, I believe becoming a ghost may have jaded me. My upcoming adrenaline rush on the mountain will surely give me a reality check. As far as anxiety is concerned - it's only with finances and I'm already taking steps to change my lifestyle. How did you both fight…
––––– How do you do? I had a coffee nap yesterday and listened to music with surrealistic vocals. I woke up refreshed afterwards, it was great. Susumu Hirasawa - Forces 1.5 Susumu Hirasawa - Gemini Middle Mgmt - 大綿津見神 Origa - Inner Universe Susumu Hirasawa - Gats Earlier in the day I went to the viewpoint and spent a couple hours wave watching, the water was higher than usual - at first it was…
––––– To my favorite human, I'd like to think of coding and artwork similarly to eachother. Of course - they're fundamentally different, however they both imbue with a sense of confidence when I achieve a result that I like. Happy accidents if you will. Additionally, I level up my skill within both by copying. Inspecting elements for code, experimenting and remixing with art. I wonder if I can…
––––– Good morning! I caught up with one of my friends lately, she reassured me that I wasn't acting out of pocket after all. The people I was associating with before weren't good folks - cutting ties with them was the best idea. Am I finally getting sharper, or just lucky? I finally woke up early today. I didn't get to see the sunrise on the beach, but at least it's a possibility now. With love…
––––– Hello again! Things have improved significantly since that last episode. I sleep more soundly, I'm motivated to wake up, my overall health is showing signs of improvement, and I met some new friends online. It's the same MMORPG I'd sit around, fish, and chat for hours. I'm not sure why I decided to return - perhaps it was on a whim. I'm looking forward to new adventures, especially within…