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...of devouring good literature with only the agility/fortitude of my eyeballs as a limiting factor! to all shareholders of the vespertine dot bearblog dot dev cooperative gathered before me (and any curious stragglers peeking in), i present the q1 reading wrap-up (: 2026 has not been a great year in many respects—doctrinal classes, job-hunting, personal health, making good on my goal to blog more…
[unrelated but important: stay informed about what's happening in minnesota and donate to frontline orgs doing essential work to keep people safe, fed, and free] when i was in high school, my favorite english teacher had this franz kafka quote tacked on the back wall of his classroom: “I think we ought to read only the kind of books that wound or stab us. If the book we're reading doesn't wake us…
every month, like clockwork, i wish i'd been born biologically male instead. gender is a weird, wonderful and malleable thing (i'm good w/ any pronouns!), but this is not about that. well, it's a little bit about that, since feeling like my insides are constantly a hair's breadth away from imploding serves as a not-so-great reminder of how i came assembled in the box. but it's moreso about the…
if you read my q3 reading wrap-up , you may already be aware that 2025 was not a good reading year for me. slogging my way through the ministry of time (only to be smacked square in the face with the secret history , a 2014 tumblr time capsule) did a number on my motivation to continue, as did my ever-growing heap of first semester case briefs. i really only have myself to blame, since i was the…
at a glance, it may have seemed like my blog was dead for the greater part of last year. however, it was not for lack of trying! i wrote maybe 15-ish entries that eventually just ended up languishing in drafts for one reason or another, but i thought it might be fun to share some of my favorite unpublished titles/one-liners. i might revisit some of these topics and get around to completing a few…
my first semester of law school didn't pan out the way i'd hoped. the time for introspection was probably three weeks ago, so now i'm just rocking myself through the aftershocks of failure and attempting to formulate some semblance of a gameplan for salvaging my average over the next few years. it feels bad, not just because jobhunting will be so much harder, but also because this past semester…
[ i recently spent some time reading through my old google docs from high school and came across heaps of abandoned, half-formed poetry. it made me feel so much for the girl i used to be, everything jumbled up and all-consuming. i remember feeling like i just couldn't seem to catch a break—like i was forever caught between existing as a single point and an infinite line, restless within the…
this is officially day #250 of reading for fun (again), and my dearest book review aggregator goodreads dot com and i are at odds (again). as you've probably already gathered from how infrequently i post here, i'm not exactly a social media power user. the only platform i consistently engage with is youtube, where i can cycle between obscure japanese knife-making videos with satisfying ease, yearn…
it seems i've made a nasty habit of going mia at the slightest whiff of real-life turmoil again, but i hope you've been well in the meantime. some updates from the past few months, in no particular order: i subjected myself to some of the worst fiction i've ever had the misfortune of reading in my life (proactively, of my own volition) via book club—except the rage of dragons by evan winter, which…
out of all the employees that fled buzzfeed in the mass exodus of the mid-2010s, only a few stuck around and became part of my regular youtube diet. just between us was founded by comedy duo allison raskin and gabe dunn in april 2014, shortly after they left buzzfeed due to differences in creative direction & disputes over content ownership. their channel primarily produced scripted comedy…