the concept of love is a bit difficult

i can't really word this in an elegant, flowery way. bear my incoherent sentence structures it shouldn't be a hard concept to grasp, right? maybe i'm thinking this way because i'm disordered. regardless, someone else out there relates too. it's not like i don't know how it feels like. but i just can't see myself receiving it. i would want and love to, but why does it feel so farfetched? i know i…