same shit. same person

trust the process, they say. im trying. but it's testing my patience, and i've only just begun. i don't want to be bothered. don't fucking look or perceive me. this isn't the body i want. this isn't how i want to look. just give me time, please. will i ever stop feeling this way? i hate making friends. i hate talking to them. the closer i get, the worse i become. once you realize the ugly truth,…