i don't like myself at the moment

for the longest time, i wanted my journal entries to be poetic, but they just end up being whiny. but that's okay. i'm gonna stop trying so hard and just be myself. anyway, this week has been a little difficult, if i'm being honest. i'm struggling a bit with being compassionate towards myself. it's been hard for me to stop ruminating about my past mistakes. i know what i did was wrong and i'm…