I really don’t like myself sometimes… I need a better mindset because I just convince myself that I…

I really don’t like myself sometimes… I need a better mindset because I just convince myself that I can’t change and reinforce that by moping about it. I get so confused and mixed up when I think about myself because I have so many thoughts and a lot of them are abstract and so I can’t ever put it into words… I don’t know why I do the things that I do and everything is confusing