return once again to the self-induced hellhole, why must i repeat the sufferings? love, why so cruel...

here i am back again... hullo... sigh i made it pretty far this last bit- 1.5 weeks, or was it 2? where i was on my own and away from xenotrek... i did pretty good up until the final 2 days, where- admittedly- i became... homesick. how embarassing is that? a 27 year old woman, homesick, and for someone who doesn't even give two shits about her!!! what the fuck is that! ugh. love is HORRID. EVIL.…