spread out into a cloud of static buzzing particles, i am the female incel, the forever cringe white knight, i am never cruel

consider me to be groaning and lazily rolling out of my pile of sheets i call a bed to write this transmission, dearest reader. i am depressed. it has officially been like... a whole month since i left my abusive relationship of 8 years. 8 fucking years!!! ughhhrhghhh.. and it still hurts quite badly. i still am waiting for him to come and get me, to apologize, to tell me he loves me, wants to…