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guqin-and-flute : I&rsquo;ve tried to begin this idea a hundred different ways but I need it to exist more than I need it to be perfect, so I&rsquo;m just going to tell you all casual here, okay? So what if Jin Guangyao is more like his mother than he realizes because she is more like him than he realizes. Later in his life especially, he would attribute his own perceived failings and character…