a missing chapter

When I was very young I had a feeling I have missed a chapter everyone else had (had? saw? I don't know how to put this in English) and this was the reason I just did not fit in. I think we humans are believers by nature; we create all these fictions and we truly love believing them. In my case, I had the fiction for years that "one day" I will find my people. That never happened. At least 4…