suicide post mortem 7 days on

i failed. which hurts. that i couldn’t do it. shima left for a few days. it was lonely. it was hard. i wonder if its better to have no options now. nothing i would choose at least. starve. hypothermia. sleep deprivation. car. jump. when i feel so hurt or so much pain. i have no where to look. no future to desire and hold. i cant say its ok. get through this. we can always just die if its too hard.…