heart

––––– Dad, I'm keeping busy to distract myself from grief. I miss when life felt stable. I miss the simplicity of it all. I miss you and mom both. Why does this heart keep bleeding? I've tried everything to get it back to normal, but nothing has been working. Freezing it makes it go numb, using it makes it gush blood — nothing feels right anymore. I know what I want, but those invisible stairs…