unworthy hymns

A few Sundays ago, I stood before the Church body, freshly baptized, with a bouquet of yellow tulips in my hand. But as I stared into the smiling pews, I found myself tormented by a thought. I am the first in my family to believe. Dare I have faith when so many do not? I’ve been told “you will know Him by His works,” but since I’ve believed, I’ve faced the regular heartbreak and hardships. Life…