# laid (blogs) — RSS Amplifier Recent posts from the 1 feeds in the RSS Amplifier directory that cover laid. Page: Feed: --- ## [I'm getting interviews but I'm self sabotaging](https://thisdoesntmatter.bearblog.dev/im-getting-interviews-but-im-self-sabotaging-new/) _2026-05-15 · thisdoesntmatter · This doesn't matter_ Context: I got laid off a week ago I've applied to a lot of jobs and 3-4 good ones them have responded and I've started interviewing. But I'm scared. I have interview PTSD. I just don't want to take on the massive risk of putting my heart and soul into working on assignments, preparing for interviews and getting rejected. I've had that happen in the past, and it hurts. It hurts like a bitch. I get… ## [I hated my job, then I got laid off](https://thisdoesntmatter.bearblog.dev/i-hated-my-job-then-i-got-laid-off/) _2026-05-07 · thisdoesntmatter · This doesn't matter_ I woke up at 7AM. I have to on WFO days, if I want to beat the traffic. Woke up. Checked Slack. Was automatically logged out of Slack. And I knew. Shit. Shit shit shit shit. Opened email. "Action required by 7PM today" SHIIIT. Woke my partner up. "I got laid off" "..." "I got laid off" \*\* hugs me \*\* "What's the severance?" "2 months" My dad's next immunotherapy is tomorrow. I check the health… ## [Sadness is addictive, we don't talk about it enough](https://thisdoesntmatter.bearblog.dev/seduction-of-sadness/) _2026-05-04 · thisdoesntmatter · This doesn't matter_ I grew up sad. I was a sad, depressed kid. There was no one to teach me how to snap out of it and how to redirect my thoughts or how to not let it run on a loop in my head and how to not subconsciously form an identity around being sad. I paid dearly for it. Now, at 30, I'm a much happier, healthier person, with a wide variety of hobbies, but at times I can still feel the sadness trying to…