Trying (diary #1)

I want to write but all I really have to write or think about is my own misery right now - so I guess that's what I will do. Very few people actually listen or try to understand my pain. I don't mean this to start a pity party. I think more so, I would just like some documentation that shows I am trying to get better so that my life stops feeling like a waste. I am 23 and I feel like I have wasted…