progress is not linear

but I hate when I justify certain behaviors, in internal monologue, with simultaneous understanding that I'm self-destructive. What is that? Why do I section off part of myself as an audience that I can deceive? At the end of the day, I am an addict. Not an addict of drugs, but of other things. I can't quit everything at the same time. I will give myself grace. I quit one thing. When I'm finally…