Trigger Warning: Suicide

I haven't felt like I wanted to kill myself for a long until now. It's always because of one thing, it's always my parents. I feel suffocated, helpless, at fault, guilty, mad, all at the same time. Sometimes I'm strong of the opinion that I should've felt more affection, because I'm the only one they have to give it, too, but yet it lacks, and I can't do anything but deal with it, and understand…