constipation or diarrhea

this is how it is with loneliness, I have realized recently. It's either constipation or diarrhea, either I am so, so lonely, almost disappearing out of this world, or either I am occupied by all the crap that I really don't care about, so called connections. Of course, there are good connections. The good ones can easily make my day. But the thing is you don't get to choose. I wouldn't call this…