I am a success, I am a failure

Let's forget about the success part. That we can talk about later. The failure. It's a fluctuating feeling. Sometimes I love my life, despite how boring it is on the outset. Sometimes ... I hate it, exactly because how boring it is. The so-called, "descipline", "self-control", "ambition" are nothing more than euphenisms. It's life or no life. It's having space to be empty. Then life comes in. It…