A response to Pprr from 2 months ago

Two months ago, in the foggy midst of wedding planning, I wrote this to post anonymously on Reddit. I was extremely sad and frustrated by how things were going. I eventually decided not to post it because I didn't want advice like "leave your husband" that Redditors would inevitably leave, sinking me further into the despair I was in. I wanted to reflect on my wedding now that it's about 1.5…