Feeling lonely in the ant colony

Tonight I had on of my self-pity episodes titled "I tried so hard my whole life yet I'm still fucking unemployed and lost at 30" . I'm not proud of this one but it's a thought I often have. As I tried to climb out of that hole — again, I wondered what this feeling is exactly. It's like feeling lonely in a room full of people. It's like being dumped in a world with the wrong tools, the wrong map…