i don't feel like myself without makeup

today i did my makeup pretty well. i followed a tutorial and everything and eventually i was satisfied with the result. but here's the thing, i didn't put on my enlarging contacts (because i'm running out) and when i looked in the mirror, i couldn't recognize myself at all. i stared at my reflection for maybe five minutes and i just couldn't tell who i was, and i can only really look at myself…